Shit June

[headimplosion]

This has just been a fucking shitty month so far, the shittiest of the year. Well, March comes in close second, but my god, this June, every aspect of my life is just shit, except for the academic aspect. Academics is really the only area in which I'm shining right now, let's keep it real girl, we gon keep it real, let's keep it real, but let's start off with the shitty things, mkay? So the weather has not been very June-like. It fucking sucks is what I'm saying, it's been the rainiest June since like 1982 or something like that, and it ain't getting any better. So that's some shit. Second, my health has just been shit, because right around finals I got some kind of throat cold and just felt like motherfucking shit and like, yeah, it sucked balls. Also I haven't worked out or done anything active with myself since April, so I'm like slowly deteriorating, and I'm fucking lazy, and I can't seem to motivate myself to do anything about. Okay, next of all, and this is a big one, my living situations are shit. Ichiro is annoying the fucking shit out of me, with his fucking incompetence and retardation, like the kid lacks any form of common sense. We live in a tiny ass fucking apartment, so it gets moist easily when someone showers. So I fucking told him, after you take a shower, leave the bathroom door closed, and keep the fan on. Can he manage to do that? Of course not. And we're sharing the grocery bill, which is something I never should've agreed to because it's just a BAD idea. And although we're sharing the food bill, he still invites his dumb Chinese girlfriend over to eat our food, so I'm basically paying for her to eat, and...I don't like that. So I'm ending that whole arrangement. Okay, another big reason why this month sucks, my whole "relationship" bullshit, or whatever the fuck that was with Ken fucking vanished into thin air. Which, yeah, it's a good thing that I'm not continuing something if it's a fucking lie, but at the same time, that whole affair has really worn down my self-esteem and made me extremely lonely, so pretty much, that asshole came along and ruined my peaceful state of mind that I had worked so fucking hard to establish after breaking up with Danny. I'll get back there soon, but still, I have to go through all this shit again??? Not only that but I made a fucking fool out of myself clinging onto Ken for dear life after he told me he just wanted to be friends or whatever. Oh well, fuck you ho. Oh, and let's not forget my financial situation. My mom has been on my ass for weeks now about my damn money situation because apparently, I'm out. So I've been working extra hours at the library (which is where I'm at right now), and you can bet your sweet ass it sucks balls. Oh, and uh, last but not least, the final reason why this month fucking sucks is that two of my friends, and one of them my best Japanese friend from the last few months, have left Seattle. Soo...it just fucking increases my loneliness and disappointment that the only friends I have left are the fucking lame ones. GOD why does life suck?!
Despite all the fucking lameness and shittiness, I take comfort in the fact that this is all temporary. My feelings for Ken are already fading, and I'm already confident that I'll have more successes in love this summer. Also I'm signed up for a fitness class, so soon my fitness goals will be complete, and I'll be taking classes and meeting up with my conversation partner and all that wonderful shit, so I'll be busy enough not to notice all the bullshit disasters that seem to have been occurring in my life lately. Umm...also I'll be moving out of my apartment in August so, just like one more month and a half of fucking dumb-ass retarded Ichi and I'll be fucking free!!! And I exaggerated above, the weather is getting nicer. I just wanted a chance to bitch about some shit. So there! Anyway, in conclusion, this June is shitty, but it's slowly getting better. I think.