Disco lemonade
I think I have a lot to offer the world. I think I can make it through all this shit okay. I think I still have many more amazing experiences to have and amazing people to meet, like this year was just an introduction. A disappointing one compared to the kinds of things I could be doing.
I think I'm getting restless. I'm tired of waiting around for my life to get better, or begin, or whatever. I mean, my life already has begun, yet I'm still waiting around. I've said it before, and it's true: I hold myself back in many ways. So starting tomorrow (a new week) I'm going to embark on my own personal journey of self-improvement. I want to feel healthy, I want to look good, I want to have self-confidence, and I think all of those things are possible. I want to feel good about being by myself, not think of it as some kind of problem that someone else needs to come along and cure.
I think this fall is going to be great, I know the university better now, I'm not as afraid of people as I was last September, I have a year's worth of experiences under my belt and I'm not afraid to move forward and meet new faces, go new places, etc. I'm sassy single and looking to mingle, for Christ's sake! And it's up to me if I want to have an amazing senior year, or if I want to just sit in the shadows again. Well, I didn't really sit in the shadows, I think I had some very formative experiences this past year. But I want to have even more amazing experiences, and I think I can. I want to be positive, be healthy, and have an enriched, fulfilling life.
So here's the plan:
I need a job, there's no getting around that. I already applied at Suzzallo, and I think I have a very good chance of getting the job, I just need to hear back from them. Also, I know I keep saying this and not doing it, but I need to get on an exercise plan. Which I think I can. I've quit smoking now, and it's been almost a week since I've smoked a cigarette, so it should be a lot easier for me to run by now. Then I'm going to be volunteering from the 1st to the 18th of September, which I'm excited about. And in late September I'm going to visit the Couve, which should be loads of fun. I just hope it doesn't de-rail me from whatever plans I formulate now, like it has done in the past.
Tomorrow, I'm going to go pick up some stuff at Hardwick's, then finish cleaning my old apartment, then I'm going to run at the IMA until I burn 800 calories or so. And that will be my farewell to the month of August, in the hopes that I'll be much kinder to myself in September. I'm also going to continue my goals that I set for August...listen to at least 1 podcast per day, 10 songs from my library per day, draw at least once per day, write at least one journal entry per day. Here's to a happy September!
I think I'm getting restless. I'm tired of waiting around for my life to get better, or begin, or whatever. I mean, my life already has begun, yet I'm still waiting around. I've said it before, and it's true: I hold myself back in many ways. So starting tomorrow (a new week) I'm going to embark on my own personal journey of self-improvement. I want to feel healthy, I want to look good, I want to have self-confidence, and I think all of those things are possible. I want to feel good about being by myself, not think of it as some kind of problem that someone else needs to come along and cure.
I think this fall is going to be great, I know the university better now, I'm not as afraid of people as I was last September, I have a year's worth of experiences under my belt and I'm not afraid to move forward and meet new faces, go new places, etc. I'm sassy single and looking to mingle, for Christ's sake! And it's up to me if I want to have an amazing senior year, or if I want to just sit in the shadows again. Well, I didn't really sit in the shadows, I think I had some very formative experiences this past year. But I want to have even more amazing experiences, and I think I can. I want to be positive, be healthy, and have an enriched, fulfilling life.
So here's the plan:
I need a job, there's no getting around that. I already applied at Suzzallo, and I think I have a very good chance of getting the job, I just need to hear back from them. Also, I know I keep saying this and not doing it, but I need to get on an exercise plan. Which I think I can. I've quit smoking now, and it's been almost a week since I've smoked a cigarette, so it should be a lot easier for me to run by now. Then I'm going to be volunteering from the 1st to the 18th of September, which I'm excited about. And in late September I'm going to visit the Couve, which should be loads of fun. I just hope it doesn't de-rail me from whatever plans I formulate now, like it has done in the past.
Tomorrow, I'm going to go pick up some stuff at Hardwick's, then finish cleaning my old apartment, then I'm going to run at the IMA until I burn 800 calories or so. And that will be my farewell to the month of August, in the hopes that I'll be much kinder to myself in September. I'm also going to continue my goals that I set for August...listen to at least 1 podcast per day, 10 songs from my library per day, draw at least once per day, write at least one journal entry per day. Here's to a happy September!