I wanna kiss you in Paris...
So I've been feeling a little depressed today...I just felt like the quarter was finally starting for me, and now it's over. Fucking lame. Also, boys... The hope that Jim is going to call me back is fucking dead and buried, which I find disappointing, to state the obvious. I guess I learned my lesson, which is not to get so fucking attached. Also, I met up with Chris on Friday to study for the final, and he showed up alone! And he's gay!! So we talked for a little bit, and we ended up getting some pho, and he payed, which was nice. We both played it kinda cool, although I was kinda nervous, as usual. And I lost my appetite, so I had to take the pho home. Now it's all soggy, sitting in its container... Chopsticks + nervousness = does not work. So we just kinda left, and I told him if he ever wanted to hang out over break, he could give me a call. And he was like "Let's get sushi sometime." So, I figure I'll give him a call on Friday and see if he still wants to. But yeah, after that, things have only been downhill...which fucking sucks. I've got my physics final on Tuesday, which I'm totally worried about. I can't even motivate myself to START studying for it, because it only depresses me that I have no clue how to do any of this shit. GAHHH!
In other news, I decided to give Alex a friendly "yo ho" on AIM the other day. The faggot didn't respond. Then I checked my facebook, and apparently he dis-added me too. HA! Well, good riddance anyway, stupid fuck. My one happy moment of the day came when Brionna told me of a way to fix the necklace Amanda is "letting me borrow". So, now I can look all fly again. I just need a safety pin, which we don't have. I'm planning on going to Fred Meyer tomorrow anyway, so I guess I'll pick some up then. But yeah, exciting! LOL. I also went shopping on the Ave so I could try to find a new one, but to no avail...however, I did have a good time checking out the Asian import stores and trying strange candy. Although it was a little depressing too because I wish I had someone to do all that stuff with...loneliness will just suck the fucking life out of you. It didn't help that Brionna was gone all day. Oh also, Brionna and I went shopping at the U Village the other day, which was nice because we were socializing for once, I finally felt like I had some semblance of companionship...but then fucking JEFF had to show up and ruin everything. In other words, I feel like a pathetic loser who doesn't have any friends, and that's the main reason, besides not having a boyfriend, that I'm depressed. Oh, also besides finals too. Life just fucking sucks sometimes. And my mom called and woke me up when I was finally getting some much-needed sleep to remind me that I'm going to have to go down there sometime during Christmas break...which I don't really want to do all that badly. I felt like a prisoner when I was up there for Thanksgiving, just getting tossed around and pulled apart by my family and friends. That's probably bad to say because of course I love my friends, and to a lesser extent, my family, but still! It's like everyone wanted to get their greasy little fingers all over my precious resty time. I think it would be nice to spend most of my break up here, getting a chance to explore Seattle and meet people, or just whatever. I hate feeling obligated.
Anyway, my plan for tomorrow is to get up sort-of early, head on down to Fred Meyers, pick up some safety pins, undershirts, underwear, and maybe some food, then come back to the apartment and eat something, get ready to go to the gym, then exercise my ass off, and spend the rest of the day studying for the physics midterm. No, wait...I think I should exercise as a study break. God, there are too few hours in the day to get done what I need. Man, if I didn't require sleep to function, I wouldn't be in this mess. Okay, I believe this entry is long enough, so I'll shut up now.
In other news, I decided to give Alex a friendly "yo ho" on AIM the other day. The faggot didn't respond. Then I checked my facebook, and apparently he dis-added me too. HA! Well, good riddance anyway, stupid fuck. My one happy moment of the day came when Brionna told me of a way to fix the necklace Amanda is "letting me borrow". So, now I can look all fly again. I just need a safety pin, which we don't have. I'm planning on going to Fred Meyer tomorrow anyway, so I guess I'll pick some up then. But yeah, exciting! LOL. I also went shopping on the Ave so I could try to find a new one, but to no avail...however, I did have a good time checking out the Asian import stores and trying strange candy. Although it was a little depressing too because I wish I had someone to do all that stuff with...loneliness will just suck the fucking life out of you. It didn't help that Brionna was gone all day. Oh also, Brionna and I went shopping at the U Village the other day, which was nice because we were socializing for once, I finally felt like I had some semblance of companionship...but then fucking JEFF had to show up and ruin everything. In other words, I feel like a pathetic loser who doesn't have any friends, and that's the main reason, besides not having a boyfriend, that I'm depressed. Oh, also besides finals too. Life just fucking sucks sometimes. And my mom called and woke me up when I was finally getting some much-needed sleep to remind me that I'm going to have to go down there sometime during Christmas break...which I don't really want to do all that badly. I felt like a prisoner when I was up there for Thanksgiving, just getting tossed around and pulled apart by my family and friends. That's probably bad to say because of course I love my friends, and to a lesser extent, my family, but still! It's like everyone wanted to get their greasy little fingers all over my precious resty time. I think it would be nice to spend most of my break up here, getting a chance to explore Seattle and meet people, or just whatever. I hate feeling obligated.
Anyway, my plan for tomorrow is to get up sort-of early, head on down to Fred Meyers, pick up some safety pins, undershirts, underwear, and maybe some food, then come back to the apartment and eat something, get ready to go to the gym, then exercise my ass off, and spend the rest of the day studying for the physics midterm. No, wait...I think I should exercise as a study break. God, there are too few hours in the day to get done what I need. Man, if I didn't require sleep to function, I wouldn't be in this mess. Okay, I believe this entry is long enough, so I'll shut up now.