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I'm not myself, but I'm not sure who I've turned into. I've felt like complete emotional shit the past couple of weeks. There are a few different things causing it... so I know where it's coming from and why it's happening, but I have no idea how to break out of it.
If you know me, you know that's not how I usually am. I always try to stay positive about everything. Try to stay happy and find the bright side in even the shittiest of situations.
I'm having a really hard time doing that lately. I don't smile as much. I don't laugh as much. When I hang out with friends, I don't talk as much. There's always something on my mind that's just eating away at me. I want to be able to put it all behind me, but it's always there staring me right in the face.
We've got a new song that we're playing at the show on Friday, and it's probably the most negative, self-defeating, self-loathing lyrics I've written.
I felt really good one day last week. Honestly just happy and clear-headed and perfect. And then, in the course of that day, everything came flooding back and I found myself back in the same position I was in a day before.
I shouldn't feel like this. At all. There's no reason for it. There's no sense to it.
It's all bullshit and I need to find someway to make everyday feel like that one day last week.
I just don't know how yet.
If you know me, you know that's not how I usually am. I always try to stay positive about everything. Try to stay happy and find the bright side in even the shittiest of situations.
I'm having a really hard time doing that lately. I don't smile as much. I don't laugh as much. When I hang out with friends, I don't talk as much. There's always something on my mind that's just eating away at me. I want to be able to put it all behind me, but it's always there staring me right in the face.
We've got a new song that we're playing at the show on Friday, and it's probably the most negative, self-defeating, self-loathing lyrics I've written.
I felt really good one day last week. Honestly just happy and clear-headed and perfect. And then, in the course of that day, everything came flooding back and I found myself back in the same position I was in a day before.
I shouldn't feel like this. At all. There's no reason for it. There's no sense to it.
It's all bullshit and I need to find someway to make everyday feel like that one day last week.
I just don't know how yet.