...so, i ran...
school the last two days has been painful. painful to watch. im scared of what i know is happening. i dont know what i can do to help. i feel useless, at that. i had to leave today, my only chance to save my sanity. There's somebody i want to hurt, he probably doesn't deserve it, your right. However, i cant put my anger anywhere else, theres no one else to blame. i feel so empty. i still dont understand. i'll just live off of this fragile piece of hope i have left. today, i ran away from my problems, im not proud, now i regret it, but theres nothing i can say, that i havnt said before. my words are weak and useless to mostly everyone. "love has torn me apart". im sorry. your right, again. what you need is something better, a little more of the new, and alot less of me and him. i have atleast ten years of suffering ahead. "suffering knows no end". i need to find a little piece of happiness somewhere. i just wish it didnt have to be somewhere else. your always right. now i've come to realize that everyone else is better than me. im scared to leave this house and find no warmth from the people i love. i dont want to be anything anymore. i dont want to be recognized for anything i've done. it's almost time to fade off into the future. possibly, resurface down the road as an old friend. i am not worthy of what i truly desire.