It all comes around
It comes full circle every time. It's as if the force that moves this world and all its subtle changes knows I'm watching and lets me remember but, I do know that the farther I stare into the abyss the farther it stares into me. I push forward and keep my head high now, but times always come when my neck is tired from holding such a big head (not to say I have huge ego, but I kinda do sometimes).
It always seems that right when I'm at my worst others seem to be on peek performances, but when I find my way out of my funk its almost as if I pass it off to all my friends. Like now, I feel fuckin cool, because lets face it, I AM pretty fuckin cool. Ture, I have my times but, dont we all? I try to stay as true to my own rendition of reality as I can, and sometimes it seems I'm needed as a vital link of communication, and sometimes that kinda erks me, but I do my best not to let it get to me, but others around me are forgeting why they're really here, and that is above all other reasoning to LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOOR! They all forgot and I'll admit, I forgot for a sec, but then I remembered, and now they'ev all lost it. I keep trying and poking and pushing and wanting for things to change so they just may....
Amy still boggles me, she is part of the reasoning in this post, but it's mostly just my observation of patterns in my life. This is a pattern I intend to break: Finding a girl=Fearing a girl. No longer do I feel any problems with myself around Amy. I know shes gonna wanna see me, and I know shes gotta get away from Austin sometimes, but she just never lets ya know for seirious...but i guess I shouldnt be so seirious about anything.
It always seems that right when I'm at my worst others seem to be on peek performances, but when I find my way out of my funk its almost as if I pass it off to all my friends. Like now, I feel fuckin cool, because lets face it, I AM pretty fuckin cool. Ture, I have my times but, dont we all? I try to stay as true to my own rendition of reality as I can, and sometimes it seems I'm needed as a vital link of communication, and sometimes that kinda erks me, but I do my best not to let it get to me, but others around me are forgeting why they're really here, and that is above all other reasoning to LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOOR! They all forgot and I'll admit, I forgot for a sec, but then I remembered, and now they'ev all lost it. I keep trying and poking and pushing and wanting for things to change so they just may....
Amy still boggles me, she is part of the reasoning in this post, but it's mostly just my observation of patterns in my life. This is a pattern I intend to break: Finding a girl=Fearing a girl. No longer do I feel any problems with myself around Amy. I know shes gonna wanna see me, and I know shes gotta get away from Austin sometimes, but she just never lets ya know for seirious...but i guess I shouldnt be so seirious about anything.