help
So like, I've been having trouble as of late. I've worked my ass off for two weeks now, and its been extremely stressful with all the stuff going on. So stressful, that i've asked for an entire day off tomorrow because I feel I need a break after working 9 or 10 hours a day for the past three weeks. I got a little time off yesterday morning because I was over and it was the last day in the pay period.
Then last night I got lectured because I hadn't gone 2 miles out of my way on my way home from work to take someone his gamecube, which he left with me so I could play for the last couple months. Like the week before last he called and asked me to put it in my car so he could come by my office and get it. He never came and got it, and I guess he just expected that I was going to feel great after working 10 hours and I'd run two miles out of my way to give his gamecube. I am at no one's beck and call, I live alone for a reason. I've been tired, stressed, crying more in the last week than I have in the three months. I'm reverting. I can feel it. I know exactly where this is going and it sucks. Its a big huge downward spiral. So he tries to lay this big guilt trip on me which i totally don't need so I tell him I'll make sure he gets his gamecube today. Of course I have to go in before 9 and I'll stay late so I can make sure I get everything done. This means I will work more than 10 hours today to make up for taking off tomorrow. He hasn't even been working but yet its my responsibility to do his running and take care of his shit. Fuck that. He's the one thats always telling me to say no to stuff i don't wanna do. He's right. And what the fuck makes him any different? Just because he's the only person that hangs around me and encourages me I shouldn't treat thim the way I treat everyone else, and he should be able to take advantage of the fact that i'm too fuckin nice to everyone, but yet, encourage not to be such a pushover to everyone else? I think not. It ends today.
My toys don't work, either of them, and i'm PISSED at that too.
Then last night I got lectured because I hadn't gone 2 miles out of my way on my way home from work to take someone his gamecube, which he left with me so I could play for the last couple months. Like the week before last he called and asked me to put it in my car so he could come by my office and get it. He never came and got it, and I guess he just expected that I was going to feel great after working 10 hours and I'd run two miles out of my way to give his gamecube. I am at no one's beck and call, I live alone for a reason. I've been tired, stressed, crying more in the last week than I have in the three months. I'm reverting. I can feel it. I know exactly where this is going and it sucks. Its a big huge downward spiral. So he tries to lay this big guilt trip on me which i totally don't need so I tell him I'll make sure he gets his gamecube today. Of course I have to go in before 9 and I'll stay late so I can make sure I get everything done. This means I will work more than 10 hours today to make up for taking off tomorrow. He hasn't even been working but yet its my responsibility to do his running and take care of his shit. Fuck that. He's the one thats always telling me to say no to stuff i don't wanna do. He's right. And what the fuck makes him any different? Just because he's the only person that hangs around me and encourages me I shouldn't treat thim the way I treat everyone else, and he should be able to take advantage of the fact that i'm too fuckin nice to everyone, but yet, encourage not to be such a pushover to everyone else? I think not. It ends today.
My toys don't work, either of them, and i'm PISSED at that too.