All my exes live in Texas, but I won't be visiting....
After a great deal of consideration and inward struggle, I have decided not to go to TX. While I will miss seeing William, and the beauty of the inn, I just don't feel good about going for several reasons: I don't want to be apart from Bill and C for Easter, C is having some troubling OCD issues, I am unsure of how my fatigue level will affect my ability to hang out with Will and Chris, I am ashamed of the physical limitations I have, and I have gained weight and feel very self-conscious. Since this trip was meant to RELAX me, I don't think it would be very logical to go. Having voiced my concerns to Bill, he said he would respect my decision either way. I feel guilty about the money on the lost ticket, but I feel a great relief as well. We will go to Charlotte this weekend. This is a good thing, because it is quiet, familiar, and the love and acceptance of my in-laws always soothes me. I'm simply not in the place to enjoy Texas at the moment.