: i wanna make you happy...but i dont know how...
hey, well yea today same ole same ole, went to to dads work, breeze took me to jessalyn, and theeeeeeeeeen we were out playin in the snow and its like i cant play around with her or do anything like that, when ever we wrestle, if like her earin gets hit in her ear or something shell fuckin flip out on me and be liek god your so rough and shit, and today when we were outside, we were throwin snow at each other and then she throws it my face and shit so im doin it back and shes like no joey dont and stuff and sayin stop and we were playin around so i threw it anyways j/k around, and she flips out and goes inside and is liek god now im wet and my face i all red, and im like wtf we were in the fuckin snow, isnt that wat usually happens when you play with snow?????? i dunno, so i got pissed and im liek never ask me to play or cuddle or do anything that involves us messin around cause i dont want to hear you bitch. I feel like i cant touch my girlfriend without gettin yelled at and she like slaps me in the face and shit almost as hard as she can and wat do i do, i say im sorry and i get mad for liek two seconds and try to make it up, but shes so stubborn!!!! i dunno, well my dad was coming at like 6:30 and my friend called wanting to play poker and shit, and he called me yesterday too and weve been plannin on it and i leave and he picks me up and she gets pissed. well heres her journal entry that she wrote today, she hasnt wrote for about 3 months
ek yah its been awhile since ive updated... i just decided to bcuz i guess i need sumone/sumthing to talk to.. well its been almost 5 months now since ive started dating Joe.. tha longest relationship ive ever been in... hes one of the greatest people in my life... i kant imagine a day without hearing his voice or being with him.. i can honestly say that i have fallen in love with him... ~~~~~~~today i was not so good... i havent felt myself lately.. and well most of my anger i have taken out on him.. which isnt fair on his behalf.. my parents have really pissed me off lately, and every little thing sets me off.. well i took that all out on Joe and well he got mad at me.. which i dont blame him.. but he called up his friend and well he left me.. he left MY house to go hang out wit one of his friends... even though he said his dad would have picked him up earlier, but wat gets me is that his dad picked him up at like 630 yesterday.. i know im stubborn and all... well alright very stubborn...but.. i dont know.. he didnt have to leave, and he knew that it was bothering me that he was going to.. if he really was that upset with me, then i dont know.. im in weird mood... the more i actually think about it.. i think that Joe would be better off without me in his life.. i bring to much drama upon him, and he doesnt need that.. he really doesnt.. i mean dont get me wrong, i love him to death.. but maybe in his best intrest he would be better off? considering maybe that "im not fun" and "i cant take a joke" or "okie MOM" i mean.. does he not realize that that does bother me? maybe im not actually his dream girl.. hes my dream guy though... i dont know... ill be 16 in about a month? yay? license? will it what its all cracked out to be? doubt it.. i wonder how Jills doing... havent really had a chance to talk to her.. well an actually Jill Jessalyn talk.. havent had one of those in a while.. i did try calling her earlier.. but she was at some waffle place in Lakewood? maybe she met another gay guy.. maybe im just to dull and boring.. maybe Joe realizes that he can infact do better, and im just the bitch that is keeping him here bcuz maybe he doesnt want to hurt me? i know im not tha greatest person in the world.. but he treats me like a princess.. and well i treat him like tha royal garbage.. im gunna try to update more often now.. dont cross your fingers though
ahh well im leavin out her journal name for my on reasons, but yano, so thats wat she wrote ahhh i dunno, very emo, and shes right she does put me through alot of drama, but she thinks thats gonna make me want to break up with her, im a big boy i think i can handle a little drama. sure ive punched a hole in the wall because of her and i can get angry, but i never do it with her or around her. ahhh boo hoo now i sound like a little bitch.
i won A DOLLAR IN POKER TODAY!!!! YES!!!! lol snyder took me home, we stopped for swisher and then we got stuck in my driveway. oooo and im grounded again, fuck yea!!! nope actually that sucks, haha umm yea now im sittin here thinking and pondering?? ill write later
ek yah its been awhile since ive updated... i just decided to bcuz i guess i need sumone/sumthing to talk to.. well its been almost 5 months now since ive started dating Joe.. tha longest relationship ive ever been in... hes one of the greatest people in my life... i kant imagine a day without hearing his voice or being with him.. i can honestly say that i have fallen in love with him... ~~~~~~~today i was not so good... i havent felt myself lately.. and well most of my anger i have taken out on him.. which isnt fair on his behalf.. my parents have really pissed me off lately, and every little thing sets me off.. well i took that all out on Joe and well he got mad at me.. which i dont blame him.. but he called up his friend and well he left me.. he left MY house to go hang out wit one of his friends... even though he said his dad would have picked him up earlier, but wat gets me is that his dad picked him up at like 630 yesterday.. i know im stubborn and all... well alright very stubborn...but.. i dont know.. he didnt have to leave, and he knew that it was bothering me that he was going to.. if he really was that upset with me, then i dont know.. im in weird mood... the more i actually think about it.. i think that Joe would be better off without me in his life.. i bring to much drama upon him, and he doesnt need that.. he really doesnt.. i mean dont get me wrong, i love him to death.. but maybe in his best intrest he would be better off? considering maybe that "im not fun" and "i cant take a joke" or "okie MOM" i mean.. does he not realize that that does bother me? maybe im not actually his dream girl.. hes my dream guy though... i dont know... ill be 16 in about a month? yay? license? will it what its all cracked out to be? doubt it.. i wonder how Jills doing... havent really had a chance to talk to her.. well an actually Jill Jessalyn talk.. havent had one of those in a while.. i did try calling her earlier.. but she was at some waffle place in Lakewood? maybe she met another gay guy.. maybe im just to dull and boring.. maybe Joe realizes that he can infact do better, and im just the bitch that is keeping him here bcuz maybe he doesnt want to hurt me? i know im not tha greatest person in the world.. but he treats me like a princess.. and well i treat him like tha royal garbage.. im gunna try to update more often now.. dont cross your fingers though
ahh well im leavin out her journal name for my on reasons, but yano, so thats wat she wrote ahhh i dunno, very emo, and shes right she does put me through alot of drama, but she thinks thats gonna make me want to break up with her, im a big boy i think i can handle a little drama. sure ive punched a hole in the wall because of her and i can get angry, but i never do it with her or around her. ahhh boo hoo now i sound like a little bitch.
i won A DOLLAR IN POKER TODAY!!!! YES!!!! lol snyder took me home, we stopped for swisher and then we got stuck in my driveway. oooo and im grounded again, fuck yea!!! nope actually that sucks, haha umm yea now im sittin here thinking and pondering?? ill write later