goddamn it
Fuck.
every day, when I lay in my bed, my mind starts to wander. I start to see myself in the same twisted, half asleep pose, but dead. Arms ripped open, sleeping pill-full, blah blah blah.
and now that i ride my bike a lot, I always see myself quickly turning into traffic only for bloody results.
It's starting to get to me.
It's starting to drive me insane.
Its been happing far too long. I just have no one to talk to. My mother is to busy with her own shit, and with Jacob; Ashley only cares about her world, and I'm only a cosmetic part of it; Both my old roommates don't give a shit; All my male friends would just make fun of me and call me names they don't even know the roots of (emo) and hate me; and everyone else either doesn't give a shit about me or worry about me way too much for me to ever tell them.
every day, when I lay in my bed, my mind starts to wander. I start to see myself in the same twisted, half asleep pose, but dead. Arms ripped open, sleeping pill-full, blah blah blah.
and now that i ride my bike a lot, I always see myself quickly turning into traffic only for bloody results.
It's starting to get to me.
It's starting to drive me insane.
Its been happing far too long. I just have no one to talk to. My mother is to busy with her own shit, and with Jacob; Ashley only cares about her world, and I'm only a cosmetic part of it; Both my old roommates don't give a shit; All my male friends would just make fun of me and call me names they don't even know the roots of (emo) and hate me; and everyone else either doesn't give a shit about me or worry about me way too much for me to ever tell them.