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i dont even know if he will read this.
i dont frankly care.
i didnt do what they say i did. i will tell you i did. you think i did. thats all that matters. i know you wont believe otherwise. why should i fight anymore. i want ti all to be over. i wanted a relationship wigth the one man that i have loved and let love me. i never wanted it to be this way. im sorry that i cant explain my actions. thats why i lie. becuz my explanation either wont make sense or you wont like, because i dont have one. i cant explan why i would lie about these things. you kno i couldnt be with him. you know i wasnt capable of that. i kno its in your heart. just listen to it.
i worry that i ran you into another girls arms. i worry that i paniced that we were over when we werent and unfortunately gave up too soon. i worry that i gave up. no. i know ive given up. u were what has been getting me up in the mornign. you were what was getting me through the day. you were what made life fun and worth persuing. without you there is no reason for anything of it.
i want you to kno i never wanted any of this.
i love you too much to stay.
i dont frankly care.
i didnt do what they say i did. i will tell you i did. you think i did. thats all that matters. i know you wont believe otherwise. why should i fight anymore. i want ti all to be over. i wanted a relationship wigth the one man that i have loved and let love me. i never wanted it to be this way. im sorry that i cant explain my actions. thats why i lie. becuz my explanation either wont make sense or you wont like, because i dont have one. i cant explan why i would lie about these things. you kno i couldnt be with him. you know i wasnt capable of that. i kno its in your heart. just listen to it.
i worry that i ran you into another girls arms. i worry that i paniced that we were over when we werent and unfortunately gave up too soon. i worry that i gave up. no. i know ive given up. u were what has been getting me up in the mornign. you were what was getting me through the day. you were what made life fun and worth persuing. without you there is no reason for anything of it.
i want you to kno i never wanted any of this.
i love you too much to stay.