Pissed Off
Okay, thoroughly pissed off at the current moment. I fucking HATE Bob's job. I hate it. It pisses me off that the same rules don't apply to everyone. Bob has to give up doing ANYTHING on the weekend on the off-chance that he might get called...but Phil and everyone else can purposely MAKE themselves unavailable so that if someone does call them to go out to a call, they CAN'T. But god-for-fuckin-bid Bob makes himself unavailable (i.e. babysitting, far away from home, etc.). God this shit pisses me off...and Bob just totally set me off on the whole topic and i needed somewhere to vent other than to Bob and my brother because they weren't listening to anything i was saying or any of the points I was attempting to make. But i'm really ticked. I said to Bob that i maybe might possibly (i'm talkin, like, 10% chance) want to go with my other best friend Melissa to her school in NH Saturday night. And he was just like, without asking any questions or anything was like...Well I'm on backup. So I'm like, So, whats that supposed to mean? And he just says, "well I might get a call so, someone else needs to be able to watch the baby." WHAT THE FUCK?!?!? 2 weekends ago Bob was on CALL, not BACKUP (the backup naturally backs up the on-call person if the on-call person is unavailable or at another call)...so, Bob was on call, and we were in our fave restaurant...gonna eat dinner. We had just ordered when he got a call. So he called his backup. Which was Phil (his boss)...and he's like, No I can't go because I'm babysitting. But god forbid when Bob is on backup he isn't available...he'll get fucking reamed out like nobody's business. I understand Phil is the boss but, when it comes to being on-call and on backup the SAME RULES APPLY TO EVERYONE! Not JUST to Bob. God it pisses me off. I hate the fact that my life sucks. I mean, ok it doesn't suck completely. Just so much stuff is going on...I hate the fact that I'm almost 21 years old and I have to have permission to do things, permission to go places. It juist fucking blows. I get absolutely NO time alone with my friends. Well, barely. I don't know, I'll write more later.