temper
I thought last time was bad, I really did it this time. I cant even go near her with out her shaking in fear of me. I lost my temper and boy did she hear it, it wasn't even her who made me lose it. It was our friend who was out shopping with her. She did somethings and it made me think elle did them. I feel so bad. I wish i could change back time. I never thought of my self as scarry, and that people should be afraid of me. But i guess i was wrong. Both of them were scared yesterday. I cant even go within inches of elle before she shakes in fear. Im glad she told it to my face last night and kept it in. I dont know what to do. I really dont. were suposed to go to the beach this sat, me elle andrea (friend who did things that made me blow) and her guy friend john i think his name is. I want to go, but im afraid of what might happen, i deffently dont want to blow up again. I dont want it to be so awarkard, but thats 2 late it already is. what if i cant even put suntan loation on her, thats harmless. I just have this feeling that we are all gonna be putting on a show. well i got to get to school for final number 2 ill talk again later wish me luck, im gonna need it after yesterday.