My xanga entry for those of you who don't have xanga

[hccountrychick]

Ok well I finally figured out this xanga.And boy howdy did it take me a long time lol.I had to change the background because Bailey deleted the link off of his website but thankfully he readded it and now I can load it up for you here on my xanga journal thing lol.I got really pissed off earlier so I wrote to some dude that owns xanga and I told him that its a bunch of bull s**t that we have to pay to look up peoples profiles and pick out our link text and use other peoples skins.Because it is.I mean I think I should open up my own journal site.And I am going to treat everyone equally.And for those of you who would like to make a small donation they can.And I am going to get a bunch of my friends to join.But until I can afford to do that.This and livejournal will have to do.Newayz I really hope that he doesn't take my xanga away.Because I happen to like how pretty I have made it.Hopefully soon I'll be able to figure out how to make backgrounds and stuff on livejournal.Alritey well I am pretty much just going to start writing well typing up random things that pop up into my mind.Like today I was thinking I don't really like spending the night at other peoples houses.I dunno why I guess I just don't.Like if I were with Bailey that'd be a whole different story.Because he makes me feel safe.I trust him and I know that he loves me unconditionaly.Also I like to be around people who love me even when they are mad at me.I guess thats just how I am.And I am growing up and fixing to be put out in the real world.I mean like in a yr. and sumthin months I'll be 18 yrs. old and a senior in high school.That kinda scares me.And not knowing if Bailey and I will last forever just makes me want to cry out and scream and fight off all bad thoughts.I think thats one of the most things I fear in life is losing him.I don't think that he knows how much I love and care about him.Ever since I met him my life has become complete.I mean he has been there for me through some really hard times.And I am really thankful for that.I dunno I mean gawlee.I wish I could tell him some of these things.But I don't want him to think that I am trying to rush into anything.Because I'm not.I guess I am just really scared of commitment because I really really just don't want to lose him.So newayz before I make you all start feeling sorry for me or make myself seem anymore lame than I already am.I am going to get up on outta here and get me somthing to eat.I love you Bailey Brooks Shelhorse II!God Bless!Byee!

*Much Love*

Chrissie Ann