Uncomfortable
Wow, so much with being up to date with this damn thing, I promise I'll be better about it! Let me go over what has happened in my life and what's coming up very quickly just so I can get to what's really on my mind. School went well and I got an A and two B's. Meh, that's acceptable considering I'm expecting to do really well in my theater and music classes. School starts Thursday and I'm jazzed about getting into that whole deal again (again I say jazzed, time to gay it down a notch or two). I went to Tucson Last Saturday for a couple days and even though I didn't do much it was really cool just hanging out and Diana and I got to go see John Edwards speak. I only wish I would've gotten to hang out with Danny more but that's what I get for coming at a time when he thinks it's important to go to school. When I got back though two of my tires died ($550) and then a couple days later my spark plug wiring died ($280). And in the midst of all this car business I got in a huge to do with my manager mostly because I hate him with all of my being and he's an ass hole. But that's unprofessional of me to say......sorry! I have been advised that I will not lose my job because my district managers think I do great work. I feel good about that considering I'm only part time and it would be easier just to let me go. Anyway that's all that you've missed and despite some Mexicans' misconceptions, I am very happy about being in beautiful CA.
Now onto more important things! I've been having a lot of dreams lately about a boy I sort of fancy (how British and proper of me), but no matter how the course of the dream is going it always ends the same. Somehow I'm put into the situation of kissing him and that makes me very uncomfortable. Now it has been quite a long time since I locked lips with someone for real but thinking back on it, it's been something that makes me very uncomfortable to the point where I feel queasy. Por que? Is that weird? Since I've been having these dreams I wake up and just feel sick to my stomach as I think about what just went through my mind. My guess is that I think kissing is something you save for a serious relationship and I would rather give a blow job than kiss someone I didn't care about. That's fucking weird! Well I've come from a bad history of relationships so I can't say that I came out normal from it all. Well I think I'm going to go off to bed and dream about my love and maybe this time when he wants me to kiss him I won't wake up in a cold sweat with a queasy stomach.
Now onto more important things! I've been having a lot of dreams lately about a boy I sort of fancy (how British and proper of me), but no matter how the course of the dream is going it always ends the same. Somehow I'm put into the situation of kissing him and that makes me very uncomfortable. Now it has been quite a long time since I locked lips with someone for real but thinking back on it, it's been something that makes me very uncomfortable to the point where I feel queasy. Por que? Is that weird? Since I've been having these dreams I wake up and just feel sick to my stomach as I think about what just went through my mind. My guess is that I think kissing is something you save for a serious relationship and I would rather give a blow job than kiss someone I didn't care about. That's fucking weird! Well I've come from a bad history of relationships so I can't say that I came out normal from it all. Well I think I'm going to go off to bed and dream about my love and maybe this time when he wants me to kiss him I won't wake up in a cold sweat with a queasy stomach.