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ok so i liked this guy for the summer and he only realizes now what to do about it. what do i do?! i move back to school in TWO weeks.. urghhh.
is it to good to be true? am i looking to far into things? i just want to be with you, plain and simple. like i have all summer, only you chose someone else. and now you say you've chosen me, but have you really?!
in 2 weeks i will go off to Peterborough and live my life at Trent, while you stay here and live your life at York. still work at the place we were both employed and still see the girl you chose before me... what am i to think?!
do i brush it off and think its nothing? or do i think about thursday and saturday and think to myself, wow i like this guy, alot...... does he feel the same about me?! and if he does, whats gonna happen. what if he doesnt, im wasting yet again more time... do i just sit here and try not to think about it, and let what happens happens? of course not, i cant, thats not me.
but of course i will pretend like it doesnt bother me and try to get by like i have been all summer. maybe it will all work out, finally, for a change. i hope so. i like you. alot.
i find out today one of my best friends is seeing the guy i was previously seeing, whom i liked alot. who she hooked me up with. cute eh. fuck people are brutal.
and as if im going to be the only one making any fucking effort into organizing this new house and actually making it a home. I made every effort to find this place on my own and again people think im going to do it all for them. NO thats not how it is, we each put in equal fucking effort, or im outta there.
i dont deserve this. any of this.
i need to move all the shit in this week, and who's going to help me? DIANA, of course. my best friend who is always there for me. i dont know what id do without her, or where id be without her. <3
anyways, so im so bitter right now. i dont know what to do, i refuse to continue being walked all over. its done, it ends here.
is it to good to be true? am i looking to far into things? i just want to be with you, plain and simple. like i have all summer, only you chose someone else. and now you say you've chosen me, but have you really?!
in 2 weeks i will go off to Peterborough and live my life at Trent, while you stay here and live your life at York. still work at the place we were both employed and still see the girl you chose before me... what am i to think?!
do i brush it off and think its nothing? or do i think about thursday and saturday and think to myself, wow i like this guy, alot...... does he feel the same about me?! and if he does, whats gonna happen. what if he doesnt, im wasting yet again more time... do i just sit here and try not to think about it, and let what happens happens? of course not, i cant, thats not me.
but of course i will pretend like it doesnt bother me and try to get by like i have been all summer. maybe it will all work out, finally, for a change. i hope so. i like you. alot.
i find out today one of my best friends is seeing the guy i was previously seeing, whom i liked alot. who she hooked me up with. cute eh. fuck people are brutal.
and as if im going to be the only one making any fucking effort into organizing this new house and actually making it a home. I made every effort to find this place on my own and again people think im going to do it all for them. NO thats not how it is, we each put in equal fucking effort, or im outta there.
i dont deserve this. any of this.
i need to move all the shit in this week, and who's going to help me? DIANA, of course. my best friend who is always there for me. i dont know what id do without her, or where id be without her. <3
anyways, so im so bitter right now. i dont know what to do, i refuse to continue being walked all over. its done, it ends here.