Unsure.
Fundamentally unsure about what is in my immediate and/or year-length future.
Learning clever new subtle nuances of pain palettes.
Cannot find an answer that fits. Cannot shoehorn any others in long enough.
Feeling so isolated. Knowing that contact would alleviate this until I began to hold others back with my limitations and become unfun again.
Missing the security of a fallback, emotional or otherwise.
Afraid I will be dead by the end of the decade or a hulking husk only able to wish it were so.
Cannot be arsed to care if people take issue with whining or drama or similar. Better than cutting.
I miss my dad. I miss the concept of family-that-I-didn't-have.
I miss who I was.
Learning clever new subtle nuances of pain palettes.
Cannot find an answer that fits. Cannot shoehorn any others in long enough.
Feeling so isolated. Knowing that contact would alleviate this until I began to hold others back with my limitations and become unfun again.
Missing the security of a fallback, emotional or otherwise.
Afraid I will be dead by the end of the decade or a hulking husk only able to wish it were so.
Cannot be arsed to care if people take issue with whining or drama or similar. Better than cutting.
I miss my dad. I miss the concept of family-that-I-didn't-have.
I miss who I was.