2007 Update
Does a link next to this say IM posting?? Oh man. LJ is freaking ridiculous. Ummm I am home this week and randomly
i_heart_mozart is too so her and Katie and I will be hanging out tonight. I have to write a paper.
UVA is amazing, in a word. It is everything I could ever want, and so different and yet the same than I imagined. I am so glad to be away from all of the ridiculousness that my high school "friends" (the ones I never speak to anymore) gave me and just be good friends with Sus, Katie, Rachel, and Tuesy of course. I mean I have a few other friends here too (the other Rachel and Katie, for example)...
My mom and her boyfriend whose initials are LSD and I went to a diner yesterday and you can rent it out and I commented, "I don't have enough friends for THAT anymore." And it was the happiest comment ever. No more friends using me and treating me badly and only inviting me out to drive and making me feel bad. My current friends love me and I love them so much and the only downside to UVA is not seeing them.
There is a girl in my fiction writing class who went to Exeter. I remember when I was considering going to Exeter and the main reasons for not going were that Tuesy would not be there so it would not be the same and I could not leave my friends - Meg, Jenni, Cara, that crew. But even if I had left knowing I would stop talking to those self-destroying people, I still would not have become such good friends with Sus, Katie, and Rachel again so I am very glad I stayed in UD. I also got to drive and get certified to teach Hebrew school and work at Or Hadash and volunteer at all of the schools and do community study and everything. My memories from here are not all bad. Just the ones about being used and stuff.
I really hoped maybe they had all grown up and maybe I could forgive them. Because I am that kind of person. I ran into Jeff at Katsucon (went with the anime club I thought I wouldn't be joining at UVA, to speak of differences from the 1st part of this entry) and it was just so awwwwkward. And none of them have grown up. They are all the same people I hated when I left high school. I know it has been less than a year but it seems like they will never grow up and would always be the kind of people who call me up to invite me out to drive...
It is funny how I drive Rachel and Sus and Katie around everywhere because none of them have their licenses and my biggest gripe with my old circle of friends involves them using me to drive... But RKS (haha new friend acronym) do not use me to drive, and they just wanna be with me, and driving them is because I want to see them and I want to be with them and hang out with them and whether I drive over to their house, or we drive out to eat... It does not matter.
None of my CAINE (anime group at UVA) friends drive either and I am going to maybe teach them over the summer. It is funny. My life is so different than I predicted it would be in even 10th or 11th grade, even though I go to UVA. And I could not be happier. All of the drama I went through to get to this point... I guess it was worth it because I am so happy with my life now and could not have imagined myself a better life.
Even with Jonathan and my Dad and stuff... If it was all necessary to turn out this way... I mean really nothing could be done about Jonathan. I was wondering lately would I give up my amazing life for my dad to be alive again? I think I would... It is something I never really had I guess...
But I am really happy now. So much happier than high school and middle school... Happy like my month at Exeter with Tuesy. I am seeing her next week!!!! For the first time in a LONG time, over a year I think. It makes me so happy that we have not grown apart. The same goes for KSR. Just seeing two of them this weekend is amazing. I might see Sus in April but proly not. I definitely miss them a lot and kind of try to find replacements at UVA. I have some goooood friends at UVA, and they remind me all of KSR in one way or another. That proly says something about how good a job I did at picking my current friends. No more being used. No more drama. Just... Being friends, having good times with good people. :)
i_heart_mozart is too so her and Katie and I will be hanging out tonight. I have to write a paper.
UVA is amazing, in a word. It is everything I could ever want, and so different and yet the same than I imagined. I am so glad to be away from all of the ridiculousness that my high school "friends" (the ones I never speak to anymore) gave me and just be good friends with Sus, Katie, Rachel, and Tuesy of course. I mean I have a few other friends here too (the other Rachel and Katie, for example)...
My mom and her boyfriend whose initials are LSD and I went to a diner yesterday and you can rent it out and I commented, "I don't have enough friends for THAT anymore." And it was the happiest comment ever. No more friends using me and treating me badly and only inviting me out to drive and making me feel bad. My current friends love me and I love them so much and the only downside to UVA is not seeing them.
There is a girl in my fiction writing class who went to Exeter. I remember when I was considering going to Exeter and the main reasons for not going were that Tuesy would not be there so it would not be the same and I could not leave my friends - Meg, Jenni, Cara, that crew. But even if I had left knowing I would stop talking to those self-destroying people, I still would not have become such good friends with Sus, Katie, and Rachel again so I am very glad I stayed in UD. I also got to drive and get certified to teach Hebrew school and work at Or Hadash and volunteer at all of the schools and do community study and everything. My memories from here are not all bad. Just the ones about being used and stuff.
I really hoped maybe they had all grown up and maybe I could forgive them. Because I am that kind of person. I ran into Jeff at Katsucon (went with the anime club I thought I wouldn't be joining at UVA, to speak of differences from the 1st part of this entry) and it was just so awwwwkward. And none of them have grown up. They are all the same people I hated when I left high school. I know it has been less than a year but it seems like they will never grow up and would always be the kind of people who call me up to invite me out to drive...
It is funny how I drive Rachel and Sus and Katie around everywhere because none of them have their licenses and my biggest gripe with my old circle of friends involves them using me to drive... But RKS (haha new friend acronym) do not use me to drive, and they just wanna be with me, and driving them is because I want to see them and I want to be with them and hang out with them and whether I drive over to their house, or we drive out to eat... It does not matter.
None of my CAINE (anime group at UVA) friends drive either and I am going to maybe teach them over the summer. It is funny. My life is so different than I predicted it would be in even 10th or 11th grade, even though I go to UVA. And I could not be happier. All of the drama I went through to get to this point... I guess it was worth it because I am so happy with my life now and could not have imagined myself a better life.
Even with Jonathan and my Dad and stuff... If it was all necessary to turn out this way... I mean really nothing could be done about Jonathan. I was wondering lately would I give up my amazing life for my dad to be alive again? I think I would... It is something I never really had I guess...
But I am really happy now. So much happier than high school and middle school... Happy like my month at Exeter with Tuesy. I am seeing her next week!!!! For the first time in a LONG time, over a year I think. It makes me so happy that we have not grown apart. The same goes for KSR. Just seeing two of them this weekend is amazing. I might see Sus in April but proly not. I definitely miss them a lot and kind of try to find replacements at UVA. I have some goooood friends at UVA, and they remind me all of KSR in one way or another. That proly says something about how good a job I did at picking my current friends. No more being used. No more drama. Just... Being friends, having good times with good people. :)