Spring is in the air...and it's GREAT!
~ I just got back from a mile walk and I didn't wear a sweater or jacket or coat or anything like that because it is warm outside! It has been a great couple of weeks...extremely exhaustive but wonderful. I have definitely learned a lot. I haven't posted an entry for so long because my computer is gone. Well, it was never mine so I can't complain, but Megan (its owner) decided that she needed it for the weekend, and never let me know she wanted it back for good. Thanks for letting me know Megs, one day I WILL get you back, and it will be good. No, just kidding, it is really okay because honestly I've been doing fine without a computer...I am in the lab 24/7 so I just the computers here. Life is good. Other things that have been going on as of late - I had my first cilent at the Center. It was amazing, God is amazing and how He works is amazing. I realized that night that I am such an unworthy broken vessel and it is only by the grace of God that I can go into that room and speak coherent words to these women. I can't go into details, other then it was a growing experience. Counseling this woman only made me want to drop out of school and work at the Center full time. I realize that God has me in the present for a reason, but I desire a job like that in the future.
~ If you have been keeping up with my entires then you know that I was failing a class. It wasn't because I wasn't trying, I was up 'til all hours of the night devoting every last minute to this class...and I was still failing. However, I realized that I needed to change my study habits a little bit, but I was still working hard. This class is a core requirement and if I fail I don't graduate. I was alright with that because my Father is bigger then Research Methods, but I do confess that it was a little nerve racking waiting for the test results. I re-learned all the material and studied like crazy before the test. I thought it was awful and I was so sure that I had failed it. When he handed them back I was nervous because I wanted to do well so badly. I got a C+!!!! I know people probably don't think that is that great, but just take the class and you will learn the joy that can come from a D. I promise. My grade went up 40 points. It was completely God, again. He gave me the energy and encouragement to get through the weeks of studying something that I had no passion for at all. I am also convinced that He gave me a peace that helped ease my nerves. When I am extremely nervous about something, I tend to do worse, and I wasn't as nervous or anxious this time around. It made a difference. So, it looks like I am actually going to pass the class. I may even get a C, who knows. All I know is there are four weeks left and then the summer. YES!
~ Speaking of summer, I applied for a summer nanny job. We will see if it happens. It would be four days a week, 9-4, and I get to take the little girl to the pool everyday! It would be wonderful, we will see if I get it. If not, it's okay, but it would be awesome. That is all I have to say about that.
~ Kenya is only 2 months away and I am very excited, and that is all I have to say about that as well.
~ April 1, 2005 - Nathanael and I celebrated three months together! I have a lot more to say about that but right now I just say that I love him.
~ Last night I was reading about God's majesty and how truly amazing it is. He formed everything and knows everything. It was also thinking about how we cannot run from God, no matter how far we go and how alone we are, He is always there. My pastor once said that we have no reason to feel alone because God is always there in His powerful glory, however I never truly understood what he meant until last night. I mean, I UNDERSTOOD it, but I didn't grasp it. There are so many times in life were I want to be alone because I am sad and don't want others around, but He always always always is there. Or perhaps I want others to feel bad for me because something negative is going on in my life, I am realizing how selfish that is. I have nothing to feel bad about, He has blessed me more then I could imagine. Him saving me was blessing me more then I can comprehend. Furthermore, He wants us to give Him what we are sad about because in reality we have nothing to be sad about, other then we are not in heaven with Him. He has saved us and that is amazing. He is always there because He wants us to give Him EVERYTHING in our life. With that sort of love, I don't want to ever feel alone again. I know that I will because I am human and I sin and there are definitely lows in life...but it was good to realize that last night regardless. It puts thing into perspective so when the low times come, I know that He is there.
~ If you have been keeping up with my entires then you know that I was failing a class. It wasn't because I wasn't trying, I was up 'til all hours of the night devoting every last minute to this class...and I was still failing. However, I realized that I needed to change my study habits a little bit, but I was still working hard. This class is a core requirement and if I fail I don't graduate. I was alright with that because my Father is bigger then Research Methods, but I do confess that it was a little nerve racking waiting for the test results. I re-learned all the material and studied like crazy before the test. I thought it was awful and I was so sure that I had failed it. When he handed them back I was nervous because I wanted to do well so badly. I got a C+!!!! I know people probably don't think that is that great, but just take the class and you will learn the joy that can come from a D. I promise. My grade went up 40 points. It was completely God, again. He gave me the energy and encouragement to get through the weeks of studying something that I had no passion for at all. I am also convinced that He gave me a peace that helped ease my nerves. When I am extremely nervous about something, I tend to do worse, and I wasn't as nervous or anxious this time around. It made a difference. So, it looks like I am actually going to pass the class. I may even get a C, who knows. All I know is there are four weeks left and then the summer. YES!
~ Speaking of summer, I applied for a summer nanny job. We will see if it happens. It would be four days a week, 9-4, and I get to take the little girl to the pool everyday! It would be wonderful, we will see if I get it. If not, it's okay, but it would be awesome. That is all I have to say about that.
~ Kenya is only 2 months away and I am very excited, and that is all I have to say about that as well.
~ April 1, 2005 - Nathanael and I celebrated three months together! I have a lot more to say about that but right now I just say that I love him.
~ Last night I was reading about God's majesty and how truly amazing it is. He formed everything and knows everything. It was also thinking about how we cannot run from God, no matter how far we go and how alone we are, He is always there. My pastor once said that we have no reason to feel alone because God is always there in His powerful glory, however I never truly understood what he meant until last night. I mean, I UNDERSTOOD it, but I didn't grasp it. There are so many times in life were I want to be alone because I am sad and don't want others around, but He always always always is there. Or perhaps I want others to feel bad for me because something negative is going on in my life, I am realizing how selfish that is. I have nothing to feel bad about, He has blessed me more then I could imagine. Him saving me was blessing me more then I can comprehend. Furthermore, He wants us to give Him what we are sad about because in reality we have nothing to be sad about, other then we are not in heaven with Him. He has saved us and that is amazing. He is always there because He wants us to give Him EVERYTHING in our life. With that sort of love, I don't want to ever feel alone again. I know that I will because I am human and I sin and there are definitely lows in life...but it was good to realize that last night regardless. It puts thing into perspective so when the low times come, I know that He is there.