2005, who knew?
"For everything, absolutely everything, above and below, visible and invisible...everything got started in Him and finds its purpose in Him." Colossians 1:16
Just yesterday, I was handing in my Methods paper and starting Christmas break and now I am back at school for another semester of fun. Let's hope. I had such a bad attitude coming back to school. Normally, I am not excited but I get over it and do okay. This time was different. I was so frusterated with myself because I didn't like being in such a bad mood. This break was one of the best ones I have had, so I think that is why it was hard coming back to school. Also, last semester was by far the hardest and I was extremely burnt out. Also, I am selfish so I tend to focus on my exhaustion a little too much! I think if I took a moment to truly look at other areas then my attitude would get better. So Christmas break was awesome. I was able to spend a lot of time with Nathanael which was awesome:). I also got the flu, which was not fun but I also gained some strength of mind (or at least I would like to think so). I got sick by myself, which is horrible. Note to anyone who ever gets sick and are by theirselves: It doesn't matter what time of night it is, call someone to let them know you are sick and they might come and visit you. I did not and it was horrible, as I said earlier. But my dad came and rescued me at 7 in the morning. He was my hero of the morning!
Other then that, I am trying to figure out what I am supposed to be doing in my life right now. I know that I am supposed to go to school and finish, although my heart is not in it right now. But as far as after college? I have no idea. I have always had some sort of plan, even if that plan did not work out...there was a plan. Now there is not. I don't want to go to Graduate School (maybe because I am burnt out) but if I want to become a counselor then I have to. I have always wanted to be a counselor so we will see. Perhaps by the time I graduate I will want to pursue that again. I think I just need to take one day at a time.
Well, I do need to take it one day at a time, we are called to not worry about tomorrow because tomorrow has it's own worries (that is not my own thought). BUT, I cannot wait until this summer. I think it is going to be exciting. The beach, Kenya, internship and whatever may happen. It is going to be busy but I just have a good feeling about it. I am excited to see what the Lord does this semester. He did so much just over the past month, who knows what the next year will bring. I am thankful that He has been so patient with me. I realized that I had such a narrow view of my life and He has shown me that I really don't know what is going to happen when and that is probably a good thing. He definitely has me in His hands and I tend to forget that too easily. So yes, I am feeling better about school. What is where He wants me right now, so I need to be thankful that I am there and do my best. Which I will try to do. Alright, I am pretty tired so I think I am going get away from the computer screen (it is not a good feeling when your eyes start getting red). Goodnight everyone!
Just yesterday, I was handing in my Methods paper and starting Christmas break and now I am back at school for another semester of fun. Let's hope. I had such a bad attitude coming back to school. Normally, I am not excited but I get over it and do okay. This time was different. I was so frusterated with myself because I didn't like being in such a bad mood. This break was one of the best ones I have had, so I think that is why it was hard coming back to school. Also, last semester was by far the hardest and I was extremely burnt out. Also, I am selfish so I tend to focus on my exhaustion a little too much! I think if I took a moment to truly look at other areas then my attitude would get better. So Christmas break was awesome. I was able to spend a lot of time with Nathanael which was awesome:). I also got the flu, which was not fun but I also gained some strength of mind (or at least I would like to think so). I got sick by myself, which is horrible. Note to anyone who ever gets sick and are by theirselves: It doesn't matter what time of night it is, call someone to let them know you are sick and they might come and visit you. I did not and it was horrible, as I said earlier. But my dad came and rescued me at 7 in the morning. He was my hero of the morning!
Other then that, I am trying to figure out what I am supposed to be doing in my life right now. I know that I am supposed to go to school and finish, although my heart is not in it right now. But as far as after college? I have no idea. I have always had some sort of plan, even if that plan did not work out...there was a plan. Now there is not. I don't want to go to Graduate School (maybe because I am burnt out) but if I want to become a counselor then I have to. I have always wanted to be a counselor so we will see. Perhaps by the time I graduate I will want to pursue that again. I think I just need to take one day at a time.
Well, I do need to take it one day at a time, we are called to not worry about tomorrow because tomorrow has it's own worries (that is not my own thought). BUT, I cannot wait until this summer. I think it is going to be exciting. The beach, Kenya, internship and whatever may happen. It is going to be busy but I just have a good feeling about it. I am excited to see what the Lord does this semester. He did so much just over the past month, who knows what the next year will bring. I am thankful that He has been so patient with me. I realized that I had such a narrow view of my life and He has shown me that I really don't know what is going to happen when and that is probably a good thing. He definitely has me in His hands and I tend to forget that too easily. So yes, I am feeling better about school. What is where He wants me right now, so I need to be thankful that I am there and do my best. Which I will try to do. Alright, I am pretty tired so I think I am going get away from the computer screen (it is not a good feeling when your eyes start getting red). Goodnight everyone!