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wow...I haven't been in here for a while...*wipes cobwebs* so much as happened since I stopped writing! Here's my posts I made on a forum so I don't have to type it again, lmao.
Kelly's mom and I have always had a very loving and trusting relationship - until I told her Kelly and I were dating. We planned to tell her on our one month anniversary just to get ourselves adjusted and willing to make that sort of commitment. Well, ever since we told her, she has been hounding not just asking or suggesting, but hounding me to give her grandchildren by 2006...WTH, right?
Kelly has been apologizing and everything but when I turn 18, I want to move in with him and we can start a life together, I don't want a baby right now, I'm only seventeen years old! Kelly and I have been really pulled to our limits on this, and now our frustrations are coming out on eachother and we are fighting alot more than we used to. I just don't know how to reason with her or how to settle this dispute. I have tried talking to her but all she does is wave her hand at me and shove me out the door. I told her about this name I heard the other day and she got excited and asked if it was because I was pregnant and I said, "No, I just like it," and she proceeded to ignore me and give me horrible looks and gestures the rest of the time we were over! Even if I had a baby, she says she wants to name it and have it live with her!! It's as if she was only using me as her 'grandbaby maker' lol. Kelly is an adult and he is fully capable of raising our children by himself and she treats him like a little kid and then runs to Kelly when I say something about it. Kelly decided not to pursue his dream of becoming a police officer because his mom thought it was too dangerous and that she wanted him home to be with her. Now he's stuck in an office doing things he hates and when he sees me he only complains about how horrible his job is. I really want this relationship to work out because I love Kelly with all my heart, I know he's the one but it's just getting too hard. Kelly keeps telling me not to stress over it because of my stomach thing, but I can't help it. If you are down to here, bless you for put up with my whining! I usually don't like to whine, but this is really bothering me. I've tried talking to her about it but she gets defensive and everything. We had such a great relationship before, and now that Kelly and I are dating, it's babies, babies, and babies! The weird part is that Kelly isn't even her only son! She has another son and a daughter who has 4 children!
Okay, that's that. Then a few days later, kelly and I broke up for it :( I know. But just wait. This is a follow-up post:
I am so blessed that I don't even know what to do with myself right now! I got back together with Kelly, but it was in the sweetest way possible and I love him so much for tediously doing this for me. Have your box of tissues? Good. I was feeling really bummed about what happened between us because there wasn't really a closure to it, it was kind of a ‘at the moment’ thing. I was outside taking my nightly stroll like I usually do, just to gather myself and have a little quiet time, then Kelly walks up behind me. (This is going to sound like a story). “What are you doing here? Don’t you have something to do with your mother?” I was still mad at him. He held me by the shoulders and looked into my eyes. “I love you and I messed up. I don’t care what my mother thinks of us, and I don’t care if we even have children. I just want to be with you,” By then I was starting to get convinced (yes, I’m hard to please) Anyway, he asks me if I want to go for a drive, and I agree, so once I get into the car, he hands me a box that’s wrapped with a bow and I asked him what that was, but he told me just to hold it and not peek. We finally got to one of our favorite spots when we were dating, and it is so beautiful. It’s like a secluded forest where you can see the stars and there’s a beautiful waterfall and mossy rocks, just amazing. I’ll try and take a picture soon. Anyway, we sat on ‘our’ rock above the waterfall and we had a perfect view of the moon and stars. He took out a flashlight and then told me to open it and I did, and I pulled out a photo album. It was really thick and I open it and there’s a picture of random things, some of me, some of him, some of us together, and girls, I was so confused at that point! Lol! He explained that he took a picture of something that reminded him of me or us every time we were together! Isn’t that sweet? Then he told me to flip to the back of the book, and it was a picture of him crying and he said this is what he was reminded of every time we fought and every second I wasn’t with him was agony. Then I started to cry and hugged him and was smooched (you don’t need to know ALL the details! Lol) and then we looked through the album and laughed at all the times we had together. I have never been so happy in my life! I’m so lucky to have my guy!
Yes, isn't that the sweetest thing ever? I am just so overwhelmed I can't even think straight. Well, lots more has happened to me and I feel like I'm about to keel over and die because of all the stress of it all!!! Sheesh, it's summer Dammit!!!! I'm not supposed to be stressed!!!! Gah, *breathes* Anywho, I got this bad cyst in my stomach and so I had to go to the emergency for 6 hours, and that was NO fun whatsoever. If childbirth is like that, I'm so adopting! Lol. I have my guidance appointment tomorrow *gulp* All that work it took me to intercept my grades didn't work cause she's prolly gonna find out anyway.*cries* if there's a God she won't and I will be the happiest person on the planet! In other news, I am in summer school Geometry and I'm actually getting it, but stupid me forgot to buy a scientific calculator and I sit down to do my homework and wow...I don't have a damn calculator!!! And I have a group test tomorrow and I didn't study! Bah, I can't wait until I leave for San Francisco for 2 weeks...But then that means school starts 3 days later! Fucking school board rules can kiss my ass Lol. We are the only school in our district that is starting on Aug. 13th. Fucking assholes. Lemme have some time!! Anyway, my hands hurt
xoxo,
Laura
Kelly's mom and I have always had a very loving and trusting relationship - until I told her Kelly and I were dating. We planned to tell her on our one month anniversary just to get ourselves adjusted and willing to make that sort of commitment. Well, ever since we told her, she has been hounding not just asking or suggesting, but hounding me to give her grandchildren by 2006...WTH, right?
Kelly has been apologizing and everything but when I turn 18, I want to move in with him and we can start a life together, I don't want a baby right now, I'm only seventeen years old! Kelly and I have been really pulled to our limits on this, and now our frustrations are coming out on eachother and we are fighting alot more than we used to. I just don't know how to reason with her or how to settle this dispute. I have tried talking to her but all she does is wave her hand at me and shove me out the door. I told her about this name I heard the other day and she got excited and asked if it was because I was pregnant and I said, "No, I just like it," and she proceeded to ignore me and give me horrible looks and gestures the rest of the time we were over! Even if I had a baby, she says she wants to name it and have it live with her!! It's as if she was only using me as her 'grandbaby maker' lol. Kelly is an adult and he is fully capable of raising our children by himself and she treats him like a little kid and then runs to Kelly when I say something about it. Kelly decided not to pursue his dream of becoming a police officer because his mom thought it was too dangerous and that she wanted him home to be with her. Now he's stuck in an office doing things he hates and when he sees me he only complains about how horrible his job is. I really want this relationship to work out because I love Kelly with all my heart, I know he's the one but it's just getting too hard. Kelly keeps telling me not to stress over it because of my stomach thing, but I can't help it. If you are down to here, bless you for put up with my whining! I usually don't like to whine, but this is really bothering me. I've tried talking to her about it but she gets defensive and everything. We had such a great relationship before, and now that Kelly and I are dating, it's babies, babies, and babies! The weird part is that Kelly isn't even her only son! She has another son and a daughter who has 4 children!
Okay, that's that. Then a few days later, kelly and I broke up for it :( I know. But just wait. This is a follow-up post:
I am so blessed that I don't even know what to do with myself right now! I got back together with Kelly, but it was in the sweetest way possible and I love him so much for tediously doing this for me. Have your box of tissues? Good. I was feeling really bummed about what happened between us because there wasn't really a closure to it, it was kind of a ‘at the moment’ thing. I was outside taking my nightly stroll like I usually do, just to gather myself and have a little quiet time, then Kelly walks up behind me. (This is going to sound like a story). “What are you doing here? Don’t you have something to do with your mother?” I was still mad at him. He held me by the shoulders and looked into my eyes. “I love you and I messed up. I don’t care what my mother thinks of us, and I don’t care if we even have children. I just want to be with you,” By then I was starting to get convinced (yes, I’m hard to please) Anyway, he asks me if I want to go for a drive, and I agree, so once I get into the car, he hands me a box that’s wrapped with a bow and I asked him what that was, but he told me just to hold it and not peek. We finally got to one of our favorite spots when we were dating, and it is so beautiful. It’s like a secluded forest where you can see the stars and there’s a beautiful waterfall and mossy rocks, just amazing. I’ll try and take a picture soon. Anyway, we sat on ‘our’ rock above the waterfall and we had a perfect view of the moon and stars. He took out a flashlight and then told me to open it and I did, and I pulled out a photo album. It was really thick and I open it and there’s a picture of random things, some of me, some of him, some of us together, and girls, I was so confused at that point! Lol! He explained that he took a picture of something that reminded him of me or us every time we were together! Isn’t that sweet? Then he told me to flip to the back of the book, and it was a picture of him crying and he said this is what he was reminded of every time we fought and every second I wasn’t with him was agony. Then I started to cry and hugged him and was smooched (you don’t need to know ALL the details! Lol) and then we looked through the album and laughed at all the times we had together. I have never been so happy in my life! I’m so lucky to have my guy!
Yes, isn't that the sweetest thing ever? I am just so overwhelmed I can't even think straight. Well, lots more has happened to me and I feel like I'm about to keel over and die because of all the stress of it all!!! Sheesh, it's summer Dammit!!!! I'm not supposed to be stressed!!!! Gah, *breathes* Anywho, I got this bad cyst in my stomach and so I had to go to the emergency for 6 hours, and that was NO fun whatsoever. If childbirth is like that, I'm so adopting! Lol. I have my guidance appointment tomorrow *gulp* All that work it took me to intercept my grades didn't work cause she's prolly gonna find out anyway.*cries* if there's a God she won't and I will be the happiest person on the planet! In other news, I am in summer school Geometry and I'm actually getting it, but stupid me forgot to buy a scientific calculator and I sit down to do my homework and wow...I don't have a damn calculator!!! And I have a group test tomorrow and I didn't study! Bah, I can't wait until I leave for San Francisco for 2 weeks...But then that means school starts 3 days later! Fucking school board rules can kiss my ass Lol. We are the only school in our district that is starting on Aug. 13th. Fucking assholes. Lemme have some time!! Anyway, my hands hurt
xoxo,
Laura