Lesson 2 continued
So part of my homework each week for BTJ is meditating on a (long) list of scriptures they give us that relate to the topic at hand. This week being repentance and forgiveness.
One of the verses really hit me, it relates to what I discussed in my last entry, namely -- struggling with the feeling of not being forgiven by people.
2 Corinthians 2:7: "Now instead, you ought to fogive and comfort him, so that he will not be overwhelmed by excessive sorrow."
Wow. I think i was dealing with "excessive sorrow" in a few areas of my life, regarding issues of the past. I have got to let those go. I feel like forgiving should be easy, and letting go of my own sins should be easy, but as you probably know, it absolutely is not.
I have to let go of the things people have said to me that hurt me deeply -- things they may not even remember, but things I allowed to produce a scar in me that I've been walking around with ever since.
And i have to stop feeling sorrowful and guilty for the things I have done in the past that were blatantly wrong and hurt other people. I think this part is even harder, because in a sense it involves forgiving yourself, and I'm not really ready, or I don't feel like I CAN do that... but at the same time, I know that is what God is asking of me at this time; so I'll be working on it...
One of the verses really hit me, it relates to what I discussed in my last entry, namely -- struggling with the feeling of not being forgiven by people.
2 Corinthians 2:7: "Now instead, you ought to fogive and comfort him, so that he will not be overwhelmed by excessive sorrow."
Wow. I think i was dealing with "excessive sorrow" in a few areas of my life, regarding issues of the past. I have got to let those go. I feel like forgiving should be easy, and letting go of my own sins should be easy, but as you probably know, it absolutely is not.
I have to let go of the things people have said to me that hurt me deeply -- things they may not even remember, but things I allowed to produce a scar in me that I've been walking around with ever since.
And i have to stop feeling sorrowful and guilty for the things I have done in the past that were blatantly wrong and hurt other people. I think this part is even harder, because in a sense it involves forgiving yourself, and I'm not really ready, or I don't feel like I CAN do that... but at the same time, I know that is what God is asking of me at this time; so I'll be working on it...