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I just don't think I should talk in theatre classes. Ever.
My opinion seems to be wrong all the time and people tend to automatically attack what I say.....so I think I'll just stick with listening.
Like today in Acting 2 we were presenting monologues for the first time. I was going to go today but didn't. Whenever someone performed their monologue everyone would be like yay great woo hoo i loved this and that, and give constructive criticism. I on the other hand, automatically try to find what's wrong and ignore the good parts, because I want their monologues to be flawed, they can't be perfect, there's always something to work on. I don't say anything though because I don't think it's nice to just attack the monologues and I'd rather hear what our teacher has to say. Then I realized that class participation is important so when the last person went, I raised my hand and said I couldn't see the images clearly enough, and then everyone was like I DISAGREE I THOUGHT IT WAS VERY CLEAR I MEAN HE COULD'VE DONE THIS AND THAT BUT IT WAS A GOOD JOB. Now of course I feel that everyone in that class is against me and that Brian (the monologue person) doesn't like me anymore, and the teacher didn't say anything, and I just ended up feeling humiliated. Now I know that when I do mine on thursday they'll only attack me. They won't think I'm good enough. There are some real talented people in my class.....I don't know if I'm one of them......
Ballet was cancelled. I is sad.
I feel like the awkward one in my creating musical theatre class too. I'm the girl who can sing loudly but can't sing pretty for shit. I tried it last week. Putting my voice lessons to the test. It was a miserable failer. It doesn't help that I don't REALLY know what I'm doing anymore. in terms of everything relating to musical theatre, and performing in general.
I am learning a lot, and I'm trying to apply it, but is it working? I don't know. Should I care if it's working? My Acting 1 teacher said that fear and the desire to suceed is the actor's worst enemy and if you let these things rule you, you won't be successful. You just do it. I try my best to heed his words, but I can't help if I'm human. And I'm a perfectionist when it comes to performing. I don't know if that's good or not....
This hasn't been a great day.
My opinion seems to be wrong all the time and people tend to automatically attack what I say.....so I think I'll just stick with listening.
Like today in Acting 2 we were presenting monologues for the first time. I was going to go today but didn't. Whenever someone performed their monologue everyone would be like yay great woo hoo i loved this and that, and give constructive criticism. I on the other hand, automatically try to find what's wrong and ignore the good parts, because I want their monologues to be flawed, they can't be perfect, there's always something to work on. I don't say anything though because I don't think it's nice to just attack the monologues and I'd rather hear what our teacher has to say. Then I realized that class participation is important so when the last person went, I raised my hand and said I couldn't see the images clearly enough, and then everyone was like I DISAGREE I THOUGHT IT WAS VERY CLEAR I MEAN HE COULD'VE DONE THIS AND THAT BUT IT WAS A GOOD JOB. Now of course I feel that everyone in that class is against me and that Brian (the monologue person) doesn't like me anymore, and the teacher didn't say anything, and I just ended up feeling humiliated. Now I know that when I do mine on thursday they'll only attack me. They won't think I'm good enough. There are some real talented people in my class.....I don't know if I'm one of them......
Ballet was cancelled. I is sad.
I feel like the awkward one in my creating musical theatre class too. I'm the girl who can sing loudly but can't sing pretty for shit. I tried it last week. Putting my voice lessons to the test. It was a miserable failer. It doesn't help that I don't REALLY know what I'm doing anymore. in terms of everything relating to musical theatre, and performing in general.
I am learning a lot, and I'm trying to apply it, but is it working? I don't know. Should I care if it's working? My Acting 1 teacher said that fear and the desire to suceed is the actor's worst enemy and if you let these things rule you, you won't be successful. You just do it. I try my best to heed his words, but I can't help if I'm human. And I'm a perfectionist when it comes to performing. I don't know if that's good or not....
This hasn't been a great day.