Let this wind blow me over...
I went for a walk the other day...
it was really windy, but nice. Not cold, but warm and really strong... like a storm was coming. Which it did. The clouds were a brownish red color. Looking something like dry blood, you know? It was dark out though, which was really cool.
God I miss just staring at the sky for hours.
This week wasn't that good. It was rather hard to breathe.
A lot of stuff happened. A couple of people have told me I'm changing... But they can't tell me what or why they think that. I don't know what the point is of telling me then. Because there's nothing I can do. And even if I am changing, what do you want me to do? Maybe it's better to change, no? I'm not something you can press between the pages of your journal and keep the same way forever. That's not how life works, so why try? When reality hits, it only hurts more.
I learned something about someone and myself.
And it kills me to know that I just have to get over it. They don't know it, but every word and smile that slips across their lips, twists the knife in my heart as well as rips the air from my lungs. But like I said, I just have to get over it.
[evenifidontwantto]
that's all for now...
<3<3<3
it was really windy, but nice. Not cold, but warm and really strong... like a storm was coming. Which it did. The clouds were a brownish red color. Looking something like dry blood, you know? It was dark out though, which was really cool.
God I miss just staring at the sky for hours.
This week wasn't that good. It was rather hard to breathe.
A lot of stuff happened. A couple of people have told me I'm changing... But they can't tell me what or why they think that. I don't know what the point is of telling me then. Because there's nothing I can do. And even if I am changing, what do you want me to do? Maybe it's better to change, no? I'm not something you can press between the pages of your journal and keep the same way forever. That's not how life works, so why try? When reality hits, it only hurts more.
I learned something about someone and myself.
And it kills me to know that I just have to get over it. They don't know it, but every word and smile that slips across their lips, twists the knife in my heart as well as rips the air from my lungs. But like I said, I just have to get over it.
[evenifidontwantto]
that's all for now...
<3<3<3