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tonight is just one of those nights, one of those shitty ass nights where it doesnt matter what is said to me, i will not come out of this funk. hopefully family guy will help a little bit. i guess i just have come to realize a few things: 1) baseball is over for me after this summer, and it sucks i have no idea what to do with myself. i'm probably not going to make keene which yeah is a shitty attitude but i'm not really your traditional first baseman. i need to hit the weights hard this summer and i plan to. 2) i can never be satisfied with things. whatever i have i always want what is "better" i need to realize to just take things in stride and even when i think i am i always fuck up. i'm sick of fucking up...this is what i mean, a glass is half empty kind of day...