So, yeah
Well, this past month, I have been having a flin as one would say with a friend from portland. And just recently this "fling" stopped, with him being a jerk. So this past two weeks, one being while I was in Indianapolis, I was getting over this guy. And everytime I saw something to so with the USMC, he was going to go into it, I would of course think of him, and so it was really bad. I had a horrible week the first week and it was terrible. Nationals was helping cause of all the cute boys that were there. But tonight, I realized that I am over this guy. Why should i waste my time on this guy who is first of all a jerk, and that ugh he is just a jerk. But, it's weird, this guy has been on my mind for about seven months. And now all the sudden, he's gone. It was crazy hard. And I got through it.
But during the "fling" i was thinking, wow it's actaully going to work out. Finally, something will work out. But it didn't, and that's okay, because I know that the next guy, if i wait, and just let God work his magic with it, then it will be so much better, and the guy will be a great guy. This is really weird, because it has brought a few fears out, like dating someone who is in the military/in iraq. But, with God, I can so deal with those things. It's so crazy. And I am happy that I don't have to think about this guy anymore, and I am so proud of myself because first of all, I deleted all his text messages and his number from my phone. And most of all because I haven't tried to contact him. It would be kind of weird if I contacted him after telling him to have a nice life...
and, I kind of feel like I am mgoing to through up this sandwhich i ate a couple of hours ago....
But during the "fling" i was thinking, wow it's actaully going to work out. Finally, something will work out. But it didn't, and that's okay, because I know that the next guy, if i wait, and just let God work his magic with it, then it will be so much better, and the guy will be a great guy. This is really weird, because it has brought a few fears out, like dating someone who is in the military/in iraq. But, with God, I can so deal with those things. It's so crazy. And I am happy that I don't have to think about this guy anymore, and I am so proud of myself because first of all, I deleted all his text messages and his number from my phone. And most of all because I haven't tried to contact him. It would be kind of weird if I contacted him after telling him to have a nice life...
and, I kind of feel like I am mgoing to through up this sandwhich i ate a couple of hours ago....