Thanksgiving 2007.

[hayrotheduck]

I am thankful for things that are few and far between. I have learned from those that I have loved that I was thankful for all of the wrong reasons, and that personality can be paper thin

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with my one last gasping breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt

[mcp87]

sadly. i must agree with almost all of your statements. perhaps one day we can be friends or something of that sorts. i can only say that i will always fucking worry about you. and that coffee and cigarettes for me still remains the icing on the crumbles of that cake that remains on the paper plate that once held our amazing(along with amazingly fucked up) relationship. i don't know how to help you right now, or for that much even be there for you. (Which is why I am glad that he is.) Know that I am no longer hurt, because no matter what happens you have impacted me immensely as a person. We may have created something that didn't even exist in order to comfort our souls. But then again with that I am lying knowing that I may have lost one of the greatest connections ever known. As far as the fraud I saw him driving the wrecked wabash death trap today. it was fucking scary. I do still however get the urge to spray and steal baby jesus'. I don't know if that is due to his impact on my life or the marylin manson book...but either way I am content. Theres not much left to say really, but yet again another lie because the truth is I could write to you forever. too bad you will never have it that way. but thank you, from the bottom of my heart. you are the reason why I burst and why I bloom. nothing changes the things I said to you. I truly meant them. and to the best of my knowledge I probably always will. I gave you so many reasons and you only gave me one. but it doesn't matter now. because it is all said and done. I hope that you have something to live for besides me. you always said that, and if you end up dead then I will know it is true. I swear to "god" that I am always here. you grew up so much in this past year, looking back at the entry from last year, as I very well know you did, I realized this. I am proud of you. and know that if if she is not capable of expressing it see is too. I love you hayley...on a level that I never even knew existed. you will always fucking be a part of me.