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Things are just too hard. He's so sick and I can see how hard it is on mum. She gets the full force of it. I just wish there was something I could do.
School is basically taking over everything. I barely have a social life at the moment because there simply isn't much time. And I don't even have the time to talk on msn. Havn't spoken to Alice, Emma, Daisy, Isie, Viv, Zara, Jo, Julie, kylie, Jess or Jessye in AGES!!! I spent so much of today doing homework, and tomorrow as soon as I get home from callies birthday I'll have to do more. And I still havn't even taken photos for SA...proofs are due next monday. Shit.
I want to help Keshia. She's so down and seems so upset. I want to show her just HOW MUCH she means to me. Well, I suppose she probably knows that because I fought so hard and for so long just to get her to speak to me...
But its nothing like it was before. We barely talk, and I miss it so much. I want to help her out, show her that she means so much and that I'll always be there for her, and want more than anything for her to be truly happy. I know some of the shit she's been through in life, and I don't want her to be miserable again.
I just don't know WHATS happening anymore :(
On happier note, had Grandpa's 76th bday dinner last night :P Woo! GOT TO MEET TED! OMG, he's the most gorgeous puppy EVER! Border Collie X with a bit of blue heeler or a bit of kelpie...or both, not quite sure! He's got the biggest ears..HAHA. They're growing faster than his body!! Was good to see Laura...and to see Kate without her bf...who I don't like because he doesn't talk to anyone else and so she just really talks to him...
But she talked heaps to everyone. I mean, Jane talks to everyone...even though she's with Andrew. They live together now :P She's really practically part of the family. She''s been with Andrew since they were about 18 ish (and andrew is 24 soon...) so its a long time. Haha...I think it was a little weird with Laura, we were so excited to see each other, and then she was in a hyper mood so I couldn't compete with her jokes...LMAO. Was good to see her though. The last year we've really started to talk heaps more, even though she's 4 years older. She's a great cousin :P
But grrr colin. He's causing so much tension in this family. All because of carly. He came an hour late. Left an hour before everyone else.....and brought their dog. I mean...hello...if Jack (cousins dog, he died a few weeks ago, reason for their new dog Ted) had been the dog that had been there...fine. But this was an 11 week old puppy...
Not good. And he kept letting Jet (funny name though, harry named him. Didn't talk much to harry...should have, its not his fault that theres so much tension. He was also at the other end of the table...they came once we'd started eating) inside, causing Ted to get all hyper because he was outside. Jet was racing round the table and being annoying. went into the kitchen a few times and would talk to alison (aunty)/laura etc about how stressful it was with colin...
argh...I didn't see it all before, but now I realise just how much stress colin is causing. and its not exactly just carly. He's always late to events...or doesn't show up...or does silly things like bringing the dog along....OR...like grandma and grandpa's 50th wedding anniversary last year (wait, year before) bringing harry...when it was specified no kids. He didn't plan. I mean, I could have looked after harry...
hmm. Hope he'll figure it out! He even sent emails to chris saying how he'd caused a family...I can't even remember the word chris said he'd used...something like controvery or something. Made chris laugh...
I think he sent it to chris because he is so far away and everything...but chris really just laughed at it!! Wish I'd got to see the actual email...
ok, thats enough...
School is basically taking over everything. I barely have a social life at the moment because there simply isn't much time. And I don't even have the time to talk on msn. Havn't spoken to Alice, Emma, Daisy, Isie, Viv, Zara, Jo, Julie, kylie, Jess or Jessye in AGES!!! I spent so much of today doing homework, and tomorrow as soon as I get home from callies birthday I'll have to do more. And I still havn't even taken photos for SA...proofs are due next monday. Shit.
I want to help Keshia. She's so down and seems so upset. I want to show her just HOW MUCH she means to me. Well, I suppose she probably knows that because I fought so hard and for so long just to get her to speak to me...
But its nothing like it was before. We barely talk, and I miss it so much. I want to help her out, show her that she means so much and that I'll always be there for her, and want more than anything for her to be truly happy. I know some of the shit she's been through in life, and I don't want her to be miserable again.
I just don't know WHATS happening anymore :(
On happier note, had Grandpa's 76th bday dinner last night :P Woo! GOT TO MEET TED! OMG, he's the most gorgeous puppy EVER! Border Collie X with a bit of blue heeler or a bit of kelpie...or both, not quite sure! He's got the biggest ears..HAHA. They're growing faster than his body!! Was good to see Laura...and to see Kate without her bf...who I don't like because he doesn't talk to anyone else and so she just really talks to him...
But she talked heaps to everyone. I mean, Jane talks to everyone...even though she's with Andrew. They live together now :P She's really practically part of the family. She''s been with Andrew since they were about 18 ish (and andrew is 24 soon...) so its a long time. Haha...I think it was a little weird with Laura, we were so excited to see each other, and then she was in a hyper mood so I couldn't compete with her jokes...LMAO. Was good to see her though. The last year we've really started to talk heaps more, even though she's 4 years older. She's a great cousin :P
But grrr colin. He's causing so much tension in this family. All because of carly. He came an hour late. Left an hour before everyone else.....and brought their dog. I mean...hello...if Jack (cousins dog, he died a few weeks ago, reason for their new dog Ted) had been the dog that had been there...fine. But this was an 11 week old puppy...
Not good. And he kept letting Jet (funny name though, harry named him. Didn't talk much to harry...should have, its not his fault that theres so much tension. He was also at the other end of the table...they came once we'd started eating) inside, causing Ted to get all hyper because he was outside. Jet was racing round the table and being annoying. went into the kitchen a few times and would talk to alison (aunty)/laura etc about how stressful it was with colin...
argh...I didn't see it all before, but now I realise just how much stress colin is causing. and its not exactly just carly. He's always late to events...or doesn't show up...or does silly things like bringing the dog along....OR...like grandma and grandpa's 50th wedding anniversary last year (wait, year before) bringing harry...when it was specified no kids. He didn't plan. I mean, I could have looked after harry...
hmm. Hope he'll figure it out! He even sent emails to chris saying how he'd caused a family...I can't even remember the word chris said he'd used...something like controvery or something. Made chris laugh...
I think he sent it to chris because he is so far away and everything...but chris really just laughed at it!! Wish I'd got to see the actual email...
ok, thats enough...