walk tall
Yes it's true, I can take a few steps. Finally after nearly 2 bloody years. It hurts like hell but if I have my electric shock machine on it's bearable. It hurts anyway, so why not have it hurt and no crutches. I have to walk to the printer and back twice a day at work without my crutches. It's a very slow process and I have to concentrate else my knee keeps giving way. I have to teach it not to, and that it's OK it can take my weight. It kind of seems stupid to do this twice a day without the sticks, and then use them again, but I"m not allowed to over do it.
I'm scared about doing it too, because of above mentioned popping out. But I'm also really scared that I may never progress past two walks to the printer a day.
It's like there's all this pressure on me now to hurry up and get rid of the sticks but it's going to take time. I'm worried people will think I'm faking it if they see me with them one minute and then without them the next. I know I shouldn't be so worried about what other's think, but I am. And it's like they think that walking that bit is pain free and it's all better. But it's not.
Having said all that, I"m quite excited at being able to do it. One day I may even be to hold an umbrella again instead of having my hands tied to crutches. It would be most useful to be able to do that today :)
I'm scared about doing it too, because of above mentioned popping out. But I'm also really scared that I may never progress past two walks to the printer a day.
It's like there's all this pressure on me now to hurry up and get rid of the sticks but it's going to take time. I'm worried people will think I'm faking it if they see me with them one minute and then without them the next. I know I shouldn't be so worried about what other's think, but I am. And it's like they think that walking that bit is pain free and it's all better. But it's not.
Having said all that, I"m quite excited at being able to do it. One day I may even be to hold an umbrella again instead of having my hands tied to crutches. It would be most useful to be able to do that today :)