Hurt? Betrayed?
Last night I didn't even attempt to look for a guy online. It's seedy, wrong, sleazy and seriously not something I want to do. I have been watching my ex do it online and it just makes him look super desperate and I never want to be that kind of person.
I have been listening to the stories of Pride this morning and one part of me wishes I went out yesterday/last night and the other part is glad of the money I have saved by staying in. I spoke to Joiey this morning and my ex-friend/flatmate went out last night after saying to me he can't go cos he couldn't afford it and which was the catalyst of us falling out. To say I am pissed off and hurt is a serious under-statement but now I know my reason's for breaking friends with him are justified.
Joiey and him are popping around here for his stuff shortly.... I want it all out and I want it to be the ending of me and him. 2 years down the drain. :-( It also appear's Joiey and Dan will be going on the Latvia trip now which is good cos it mean's I get my flight/deposit back. Woo! :)
While I was in the bath I was thinking of my plans for the future and considered using the internet less and less but I don't think that would do me any good. When I don't get the chance to go out the internet become's my online social life and I have made some good friends online. I'm just gonna work loads, lose stupid amounts of weight and tone up and see what the future hold's after that. I join the gym either this week or next (when school's start) so that will keep me busy.
You know when you feel really low and think of only the bad things in life..... Well, that's how I feel today. I just wish life was easy and I had friends I can both trust, depend on and have support me like friends should. :-(
Hope everyone's weekend has been better than mine.....
xx
I have been listening to the stories of Pride this morning and one part of me wishes I went out yesterday/last night and the other part is glad of the money I have saved by staying in. I spoke to Joiey this morning and my ex-friend/flatmate went out last night after saying to me he can't go cos he couldn't afford it and which was the catalyst of us falling out. To say I am pissed off and hurt is a serious under-statement but now I know my reason's for breaking friends with him are justified.
Joiey and him are popping around here for his stuff shortly.... I want it all out and I want it to be the ending of me and him. 2 years down the drain. :-( It also appear's Joiey and Dan will be going on the Latvia trip now which is good cos it mean's I get my flight/deposit back. Woo! :)
While I was in the bath I was thinking of my plans for the future and considered using the internet less and less but I don't think that would do me any good. When I don't get the chance to go out the internet become's my online social life and I have made some good friends online. I'm just gonna work loads, lose stupid amounts of weight and tone up and see what the future hold's after that. I join the gym either this week or next (when school's start) so that will keep me busy.
You know when you feel really low and think of only the bad things in life..... Well, that's how I feel today. I just wish life was easy and I had friends I can both trust, depend on and have support me like friends should. :-(
Hope everyone's weekend has been better than mine.....
xx