To pick up where I left off......
I'm sitting here at 4:59pm on Wednesday night bored as hell. I literally spend every night on the computer and watching tv.
-I don't do anything. I work 4am-1230pm everyday. I come home, puts around on the computer and or watch tv, sometimes sleep for a bit, then get up and do the whole thing over again until it's bedtime. I seriously have NO LIFE.-
It really is getting to be a bit rediculous right now. So tonight I was starting to think of things I could do. I thought about trying to get back into the swing of things and draw like I used too. I wish I had a drum set still because I'd play. I wish I had the "oomph" to get back into skateboarding. I was an avid boarder. My boards never left my side. Then, I turned down an amazing opportunity to stay here and go to school and haven't gotten back on one since. I just don't have the passion for it anymore. Well, I don't know that passion is the right word. I still love the sport, I always will. It's been a major part of my life, but I guess I just don't have the energy for it.
I was kind of thinking maybe if I got back into drawing/painting, whatever, I could somehow sell my work? I was only thinking that because I am trying to think of ways to start getting money for surgery. It's just some random persons art though. What may be art to me, certainly may not be art to another. So why would I think somebody would ever want to buy my work? l don't know.
I am getting to the point of not knowing what to do anymore. I know alot of us go thru this phase, but I can't seem to get out of this slump I'm in. This week alone, I know of 4 people getting their top surgery done. Maybe I am just extremely jealous? Possible. I think it just gets to me more and more these days cuz I have been SO close I could taste it, and then the plans (people) fell through.
Anyway, off that topic.
I am looking forward to what this new year brings my way. My family has been through a lot this past year, so I am hoping for a HEALTHY year for us all. I am grateful for the friends I have made in the past year. I am not one to go out searching for friends, so when I do actually meet some decent people, it's a nice feeling.
My birthday this year is gonna be one of the best (hopefully) lol. Gonna go to Chicago to meet up (for the first time) with some friends that I have met this year. I am starting p90x again the first week of January. I am doing so, so that I can lose a little weight before June (my bday) before I meet people. I wanna look the best I can for the time being. I know that I can do it, I just gotta stick to it, and not let temptation get the best of me.
This blog is kind of all over the place. Sorry.
I still need to do an update on youtube, dont know what to talk about though. That is what is stopping me. I could just wait til April and do a 3 year on T video, but I feel I should do one sooner. I don't know. Does anybody that reads this have any suggestions or questions for me to answer in video form?
Gonna go now. Later.
-I don't do anything. I work 4am-1230pm everyday. I come home, puts around on the computer and or watch tv, sometimes sleep for a bit, then get up and do the whole thing over again until it's bedtime. I seriously have NO LIFE.-
It really is getting to be a bit rediculous right now. So tonight I was starting to think of things I could do. I thought about trying to get back into the swing of things and draw like I used too. I wish I had a drum set still because I'd play. I wish I had the "oomph" to get back into skateboarding. I was an avid boarder. My boards never left my side. Then, I turned down an amazing opportunity to stay here and go to school and haven't gotten back on one since. I just don't have the passion for it anymore. Well, I don't know that passion is the right word. I still love the sport, I always will. It's been a major part of my life, but I guess I just don't have the energy for it.
I was kind of thinking maybe if I got back into drawing/painting, whatever, I could somehow sell my work? I was only thinking that because I am trying to think of ways to start getting money for surgery. It's just some random persons art though. What may be art to me, certainly may not be art to another. So why would I think somebody would ever want to buy my work? l don't know.
I am getting to the point of not knowing what to do anymore. I know alot of us go thru this phase, but I can't seem to get out of this slump I'm in. This week alone, I know of 4 people getting their top surgery done. Maybe I am just extremely jealous? Possible. I think it just gets to me more and more these days cuz I have been SO close I could taste it, and then the plans (people) fell through.
Anyway, off that topic.
I am looking forward to what this new year brings my way. My family has been through a lot this past year, so I am hoping for a HEALTHY year for us all. I am grateful for the friends I have made in the past year. I am not one to go out searching for friends, so when I do actually meet some decent people, it's a nice feeling.
My birthday this year is gonna be one of the best (hopefully) lol. Gonna go to Chicago to meet up (for the first time) with some friends that I have met this year. I am starting p90x again the first week of January. I am doing so, so that I can lose a little weight before June (my bday) before I meet people. I wanna look the best I can for the time being. I know that I can do it, I just gotta stick to it, and not let temptation get the best of me.
This blog is kind of all over the place. Sorry.
I still need to do an update on youtube, dont know what to talk about though. That is what is stopping me. I could just wait til April and do a 3 year on T video, but I feel I should do one sooner. I don't know. Does anybody that reads this have any suggestions or questions for me to answer in video form?
Gonna go now. Later.