It's been done
Well I have done the dirty deed and told the boy that I cannot do this anymore and that he could find me when he was not busy. He didn't say a word to me.. he didn't fight for me.. I realized I'm not the exception. It hurts a lot more than I thought it would. I got my friend Cosmo involved and towards the end he told me that he didn't want to get stuck in the middle. He thinks (or well I believe) that it was mutual that it wasn't working. I didn't want to hear that. I wanted to think it was me that was sad and Aaron was just being Aaron. I guess he didn't like me and he didn't want to get serious one day with me. It hurts and there is nothing I can do about it. Everyone around me has someone.. everyone can change their status on their Facebook and Myspace and all I can do is say congrats! It's sad and I hate it. For once I want to be the one! I'm heartbroken over something that only lasted a month and really only was about a good four days of sleep since we hung out more sleeping than anything.
I'm so tired of all of it. Xanax should be kicking in soon. At least there is work tomorrow, something to keep my mind off of things. Maybe one day he will realize he missed out. I always wonder if the guys do, but in the real world I think that is just something I say because if I didn't I'd never get out of bed again.
I'm so tired of all of it. Xanax should be kicking in soon. At least there is work tomorrow, something to keep my mind off of things. Maybe one day he will realize he missed out. I always wonder if the guys do, but in the real world I think that is just something I say because if I didn't I'd never get out of bed again.