Rapid Hope Loss
I called my X... we talked and she told me that she isnt going to California... well... she doesnt know if she is gonna go... and if she does it wont be for a while... so I told her about me moving.... she told me that I should... but I would have to drive about 8 hours to see my kid.... I wouldnt mind... I cant wait to be a father... I just dont think Im ready... but who is...
Me moving you ask... Ryan (my drummer) came to me and Rob (my bass player) and said that he thinks we should move to Georgia... the music scene up there is amazing... I'll admit... but leaving... my home... my father... my baby... everything I've known is here... but this band means so much...
My dad says he is selling the house in 2006... My child will only be 8 hours away... and this gives the band a chance to get our name somewhere other then here... cause here isnt getting us anywhere... is it?
The band got out of the studio tonight... we recorded 2 songs... they sound really great... we should have an album by august... should... being the key word... who knows what awful thing could go wrong... lol ... but I did call a friend and ask to write for her... her name is Melissa Murphy and she is one talented lady! So Im gonna start writing my butt off and hopefully that will be a way to get my name out there... she is so pretty.... but she doesnt come near Emmy... This girl has stolen my heart... and at the moment... I cant tell what shape its in....
See... before she and I started talking.... or became friends... she liked this guy and had for about 3 years... well things didnt work out... he seemed to only want one thing... and she isnt like that... so he stopped talking to her... she told me that she thought I was cute and that we would hook up with me as soon as she got over all that... and I knew that would take time... when you like someone so much and they turn out to not be what you wanted... it hurts... so I stood by and we became closer and closer friends... and I fell for her even more... she became even more amazing to me...
Well she told me about this guy she thought liked her a while ago she's liked for 6 years... and she called tonight and told me that he just left her house and she was upset that he didnt try to kiss her... but she found out that he apperantly only wanted one thing as well when he said "It wont go any farther then this"... like I said... she isnt like that... so she was upset... and so was I... she isnt really over the other guy... and yet she can move on to this guy... and now that has put her back in the same place she was before... so... I wonder... where does that leave me... and does it matter?
I opened up and told her how she shouldnt take me for granted... and how it hurt... she told me that she has one more year of high school left, and we can wait till then... and let me tell you... when she said that... my heart broke... I would say that sometimes its better to not know at all... but I guess Im glad I know now how she really feels...
Several Ways To Die Trying - Dashboard Confessional
"Pacific sun, you should have warned us
It gets so cold here...
And the night can freeze before you set a fire
And our flares go unnoticed, diminshied...
Faded just as soon as they are fired
We are we are... intruged...
We are we are... invisable...
And how we've shouted, how we've screamed
Take notice, take interest, take me with you
But all our fears fall on deaf ears tonight
They're burning the roads they've built to lead us to the light
Blinding our hearts with their shining lies
We're closing our caskets cold and tight
But Im dying to live...
Pacific sun, you should have warned us
These hearts are dizzying...
And the climb can kill you long before the fall
And trails go unnoticed, unmapped and..
Covered just as soon as they are crossed
We are we are... intruging...
We are we are... desirable...
Oh how we've shouted, how we've screamed
Take notice, take interest, take me with you
But all our fears fall on deaf ears tonight
They're burning the roads they've built to lead us to the light
Blinding our hearts with their shining lies
We're closing our caskets cold and tight
But Im dying to live...
- Hayden
Me moving you ask... Ryan (my drummer) came to me and Rob (my bass player) and said that he thinks we should move to Georgia... the music scene up there is amazing... I'll admit... but leaving... my home... my father... my baby... everything I've known is here... but this band means so much...
My dad says he is selling the house in 2006... My child will only be 8 hours away... and this gives the band a chance to get our name somewhere other then here... cause here isnt getting us anywhere... is it?
The band got out of the studio tonight... we recorded 2 songs... they sound really great... we should have an album by august... should... being the key word... who knows what awful thing could go wrong... lol ... but I did call a friend and ask to write for her... her name is Melissa Murphy and she is one talented lady! So Im gonna start writing my butt off and hopefully that will be a way to get my name out there... she is so pretty.... but she doesnt come near Emmy... This girl has stolen my heart... and at the moment... I cant tell what shape its in....
See... before she and I started talking.... or became friends... she liked this guy and had for about 3 years... well things didnt work out... he seemed to only want one thing... and she isnt like that... so he stopped talking to her... she told me that she thought I was cute and that we would hook up with me as soon as she got over all that... and I knew that would take time... when you like someone so much and they turn out to not be what you wanted... it hurts... so I stood by and we became closer and closer friends... and I fell for her even more... she became even more amazing to me...
Well she told me about this guy she thought liked her a while ago she's liked for 6 years... and she called tonight and told me that he just left her house and she was upset that he didnt try to kiss her... but she found out that he apperantly only wanted one thing as well when he said "It wont go any farther then this"... like I said... she isnt like that... so she was upset... and so was I... she isnt really over the other guy... and yet she can move on to this guy... and now that has put her back in the same place she was before... so... I wonder... where does that leave me... and does it matter?
I opened up and told her how she shouldnt take me for granted... and how it hurt... she told me that she has one more year of high school left, and we can wait till then... and let me tell you... when she said that... my heart broke... I would say that sometimes its better to not know at all... but I guess Im glad I know now how she really feels...
Several Ways To Die Trying - Dashboard Confessional
"Pacific sun, you should have warned us
It gets so cold here...
And the night can freeze before you set a fire
And our flares go unnoticed, diminshied...
Faded just as soon as they are fired
We are we are... intruged...
We are we are... invisable...
And how we've shouted, how we've screamed
Take notice, take interest, take me with you
But all our fears fall on deaf ears tonight
They're burning the roads they've built to lead us to the light
Blinding our hearts with their shining lies
We're closing our caskets cold and tight
But Im dying to live...
Pacific sun, you should have warned us
These hearts are dizzying...
And the climb can kill you long before the fall
And trails go unnoticed, unmapped and..
Covered just as soon as they are crossed
We are we are... intruging...
We are we are... desirable...
Oh how we've shouted, how we've screamed
Take notice, take interest, take me with you
But all our fears fall on deaf ears tonight
They're burning the roads they've built to lead us to the light
Blinding our hearts with their shining lies
We're closing our caskets cold and tight
But Im dying to live...
- Hayden