Can we just cancel--adulting?
Sometimes i was torn, whether i lived a simple life or a complicated one? :/
Because he always asked me to chill.
People may assume that having social anxiety is pretty normal.
Everyone gets nervous when they speak in public right?
And to be honest, i dont feel the need to even fix it bcs i really dont see me being a loud and abnoxious person.
I am comfortable just being me; less talking more listening.
Until my anxiety affected my job recently, and it sucks. :/
I'm only able to express my feeling via words and writing, bcs its so hard for me to stay collected in an uptight situation.
I'll get emotional very easily, nervous and restless.
I refuse to share this part of the to others tho bcs i dont wanna make my "sickness" as an excuse for me to not talking to other people.
If i trusted someone, i'll break the wall & bcm venurable.
Things are getting outta control recently.
People were talking around about me and the guy that i currently very close with (in term of work).
I must've admit that he's charming and quite resourceful of his work.
He also do adviced me on how to improve on my managment skill.
So i shared a lot of work related with him.
Hoever, out of sudden people began to notice our closeness and suspected that we're a thing.
I tried to play along with it once when he asked whether im coming to the old office, and i said "if you miss me, come see me here(at the new office)" with an :P emoticon.
However he replied: "I was just asking, please dont over react! haha"
Well, i was taken aback. I thought he could take the joke bcs he seems very cool about it in front of people but clearly he wasnt comforatble with people talking about us either.
Since then, i started to be cautious whenever i talk to him.
I dont wanna hurt him, and at the sametime i wanna taking care of my mental wellbeing. *deep breath*
I just wish he could be more supportive & understanding bcs i've shared a lot with him. *bricks*
Also, work is really taking a toll on me.
Mom wanna me to find another job that related to my background, while me wanna do things that i like.
Ahhh..ya Allah, why my life is so complicated! T___T
Because he always asked me to chill.
People may assume that having social anxiety is pretty normal.
Everyone gets nervous when they speak in public right?
And to be honest, i dont feel the need to even fix it bcs i really dont see me being a loud and abnoxious person.
I am comfortable just being me; less talking more listening.
Until my anxiety affected my job recently, and it sucks. :/
I'm only able to express my feeling via words and writing, bcs its so hard for me to stay collected in an uptight situation.
I'll get emotional very easily, nervous and restless.
I refuse to share this part of the to others tho bcs i dont wanna make my "sickness" as an excuse for me to not talking to other people.
If i trusted someone, i'll break the wall & bcm venurable.
Things are getting outta control recently.
People were talking around about me and the guy that i currently very close with (in term of work).
I must've admit that he's charming and quite resourceful of his work.
He also do adviced me on how to improve on my managment skill.
So i shared a lot of work related with him.
Hoever, out of sudden people began to notice our closeness and suspected that we're a thing.
I tried to play along with it once when he asked whether im coming to the old office, and i said "if you miss me, come see me here(at the new office)" with an :P emoticon.
However he replied: "I was just asking, please dont over react! haha"
Well, i was taken aback. I thought he could take the joke bcs he seems very cool about it in front of people but clearly he wasnt comforatble with people talking about us either.
Since then, i started to be cautious whenever i talk to him.
I dont wanna hurt him, and at the sametime i wanna taking care of my mental wellbeing. *deep breath*
I just wish he could be more supportive & understanding bcs i've shared a lot with him. *bricks*
Also, work is really taking a toll on me.
Mom wanna me to find another job that related to my background, while me wanna do things that i like.
Ahhh..ya Allah, why my life is so complicated! T___T