I've been going to a lot of those red states...
Rarr I'm groggy! Why? Who the fuck knows... I napped today and I did nothing! How can I be tired after a day of absolutely nothing? It just boggles the mind-I feel like such a waste, like I'm mad that I napped. Its upsetting. Anyways..
So I checked my schedule at work today and the stupid bitch gave me five days off in a row next week! Hello! I'm going back to school in two weeks and your only scheduling me for two days? I've put up with her stupid ass-no hours giving schedules, but this is just absolutely unacceptable. So I had to go into the dumb office and explain myself in the nicest way possible to the stupid bitch, the guy who does nothing, and the guy who knows nothing and shirks all responsibility. Awesome. So basically I got six extra hours next week. Thats it. My talk was worthless and only ended up making me look like a problematic employee. Hopefully I'll be able to get work during the school year since my schedule is so light. Only time will tell. All I know is I can't go on living like this.
So Hellfest is still up in the air now.. I'm getting frustrated. I'm at the point where I'm ready to call Jeff and invite him to go-thats how bad I want to be there... Ashley is going to think about it one last time and let me know for sure if shes in tomorrow. It wouldn't be such an issue if work wasn't so dumb with the scheduling. But I need to know for sure if I'm not going so I can tell them to put me back on the schedule. Really doesn't matter though because I'm sure the bitch will still give me that weekend off because she must take it upon herself to punish anyone who requests days off in the attempts to have some kind of summer vacation. Like dude, if you have such an issue with me taking time off-don't give me the time off! Stupid face!
So the zoo was amazing! We got to do literally everything we had wanted to do. I gave Liz the visit of a lifetime. We went on the monorail and the skyfari and went into the Congo and the Butterfly Zone. We also rode the bug carousel and man was it quality! I so rode a mantis and was set for the day! Since we went on Monday rather then free day Wednesdays like I normally do, the place was actually calm. We got to see everything without major hassle and got great pictures that hopefully came out. All of the animals were right up front too so there was no waiting around or disappointment when we got to each exhibit. We even went into the children's zoo and boy did they ever do a great job with that place! We had such a great time and yes, we fed goats! So good! We got Dave all excited about going so now he and I are planning to go just one last time before I go back to school. Three trips to the zoo in one summer? I don't know if I can take it!
I am so glad I've started talking to Ashley again, I totally miss that girl. She and I haven't seen each other since last August and that simply isn't cool. She is so great and has nothing but unconditional love and support for me. Shes one of the few people who've ever heard me sing out loud. I am totally comfortable with her. She doesn't make fun of anything I'm into and totally compliments me about everything. Shes basically the cheerleader I never thought I'd have. I really hope we get to go to Hellfest, it would just be so great! Anyways, the lovely Ashley is having a party this saturday and I can't wait to see her again! We are going to chat, drink, and shake our butts and it will be non stop fun the whole night. I'm really looking forward to meeting her friends and Dave said he might even go. I'm going to try and see if Liz can come too. Should end up being a really good night.
So I've realized that I'm not happy with my clothes anymore. I want girlie clothes. I want cute outfits that are only worn when I go out with my friends. I'm tired of wearing the same clothes in the studio and out to dinner. I like being a strong girl with a knowledge of power tools but I also want to be a pretty girl who needs more then a half hour to get ready and has to consult with friends on what to wear that night. I want that, I want that wardrobe. The problem is, I'm all kinds of self conscious when I wear clothes like that. Clothes I'm not used to or not as comfortable in. I put them on and then I fidget and worry the entire night about how I look, how the clothes wear on me, is something off, does it look funny when I sit? etc... I've slowly started gathering a few items that might one day amount to a girlie collection that I may one day be comfortable enough to wear to large social events. Throughout the summer, thanks to great sales at stores like Payless, Fashion Bug, Target, and Lane Bryant, I've been able to build up a catalog complete with 'girlie shoes', skirts, and tops that are not allowed in the studio. This year will be the ultimate test as to whether or not I really can be as feminine as I'd like to be. No, that doesn't sound right. I am happy with who I am and I'm proud of being a strong girl who doesn't have to ask for help or worry about walking down the street at night by herself. I don't want this entry to sound like that. But there are times when I go out and I look at my friends around me and I just don't feel up to par. I want to look and actually feel cute. Thats all. So this week I went out of my shell completely a bought two jeans skirts. The shortest skirts I've ever owned and dared to wear outside. They aren't crazy short and certainly not nearly as scandalous as some of the skirts I've seen girls show off their pussies in, no, its not that short. But for me, they are short and I will be uncomfortable in them for a long time, I don't even know when I'll actually have the courage to wear them out with people I know let alone around complete strangers. But it is a step. So I'm gonna give it a try and Katie, just so you know now, you are so helping me along this girlie journey of mine.
Okay so thats about everyting, sorry about all of the quizzes and surveys but damn if they aren't fun. Thank you Katie for once again letting me totally rip you off-your the best!
So I checked my schedule at work today and the stupid bitch gave me five days off in a row next week! Hello! I'm going back to school in two weeks and your only scheduling me for two days? I've put up with her stupid ass-no hours giving schedules, but this is just absolutely unacceptable. So I had to go into the dumb office and explain myself in the nicest way possible to the stupid bitch, the guy who does nothing, and the guy who knows nothing and shirks all responsibility. Awesome. So basically I got six extra hours next week. Thats it. My talk was worthless and only ended up making me look like a problematic employee. Hopefully I'll be able to get work during the school year since my schedule is so light. Only time will tell. All I know is I can't go on living like this.
So Hellfest is still up in the air now.. I'm getting frustrated. I'm at the point where I'm ready to call Jeff and invite him to go-thats how bad I want to be there... Ashley is going to think about it one last time and let me know for sure if shes in tomorrow. It wouldn't be such an issue if work wasn't so dumb with the scheduling. But I need to know for sure if I'm not going so I can tell them to put me back on the schedule. Really doesn't matter though because I'm sure the bitch will still give me that weekend off because she must take it upon herself to punish anyone who requests days off in the attempts to have some kind of summer vacation. Like dude, if you have such an issue with me taking time off-don't give me the time off! Stupid face!
So the zoo was amazing! We got to do literally everything we had wanted to do. I gave Liz the visit of a lifetime. We went on the monorail and the skyfari and went into the Congo and the Butterfly Zone. We also rode the bug carousel and man was it quality! I so rode a mantis and was set for the day! Since we went on Monday rather then free day Wednesdays like I normally do, the place was actually calm. We got to see everything without major hassle and got great pictures that hopefully came out. All of the animals were right up front too so there was no waiting around or disappointment when we got to each exhibit. We even went into the children's zoo and boy did they ever do a great job with that place! We had such a great time and yes, we fed goats! So good! We got Dave all excited about going so now he and I are planning to go just one last time before I go back to school. Three trips to the zoo in one summer? I don't know if I can take it!
I am so glad I've started talking to Ashley again, I totally miss that girl. She and I haven't seen each other since last August and that simply isn't cool. She is so great and has nothing but unconditional love and support for me. Shes one of the few people who've ever heard me sing out loud. I am totally comfortable with her. She doesn't make fun of anything I'm into and totally compliments me about everything. Shes basically the cheerleader I never thought I'd have. I really hope we get to go to Hellfest, it would just be so great! Anyways, the lovely Ashley is having a party this saturday and I can't wait to see her again! We are going to chat, drink, and shake our butts and it will be non stop fun the whole night. I'm really looking forward to meeting her friends and Dave said he might even go. I'm going to try and see if Liz can come too. Should end up being a really good night.
So I've realized that I'm not happy with my clothes anymore. I want girlie clothes. I want cute outfits that are only worn when I go out with my friends. I'm tired of wearing the same clothes in the studio and out to dinner. I like being a strong girl with a knowledge of power tools but I also want to be a pretty girl who needs more then a half hour to get ready and has to consult with friends on what to wear that night. I want that, I want that wardrobe. The problem is, I'm all kinds of self conscious when I wear clothes like that. Clothes I'm not used to or not as comfortable in. I put them on and then I fidget and worry the entire night about how I look, how the clothes wear on me, is something off, does it look funny when I sit? etc... I've slowly started gathering a few items that might one day amount to a girlie collection that I may one day be comfortable enough to wear to large social events. Throughout the summer, thanks to great sales at stores like Payless, Fashion Bug, Target, and Lane Bryant, I've been able to build up a catalog complete with 'girlie shoes', skirts, and tops that are not allowed in the studio. This year will be the ultimate test as to whether or not I really can be as feminine as I'd like to be. No, that doesn't sound right. I am happy with who I am and I'm proud of being a strong girl who doesn't have to ask for help or worry about walking down the street at night by herself. I don't want this entry to sound like that. But there are times when I go out and I look at my friends around me and I just don't feel up to par. I want to look and actually feel cute. Thats all. So this week I went out of my shell completely a bought two jeans skirts. The shortest skirts I've ever owned and dared to wear outside. They aren't crazy short and certainly not nearly as scandalous as some of the skirts I've seen girls show off their pussies in, no, its not that short. But for me, they are short and I will be uncomfortable in them for a long time, I don't even know when I'll actually have the courage to wear them out with people I know let alone around complete strangers. But it is a step. So I'm gonna give it a try and Katie, just so you know now, you are so helping me along this girlie journey of mine.
Okay so thats about everyting, sorry about all of the quizzes and surveys but damn if they aren't fun. Thank you Katie for once again letting me totally rip you off-your the best!