Eh.............
Well, to start with, I was in Flag an Phoenix over thanksgiving. Asked for 4 days off from work and ended up getting 6. Went to Phoenix, saw my brother, mom, Liz and Jeff. Good home cooked food!! Can't be beat!! Then went to Flag thanksgiving night, stayed at my house. Saw some friends. It was fun. Tried to hang out with a few, but that didn't work out. Saw Aubrey again.... Old emotions came rushing back.... Found out a few things. One is that there was always something nagging me when I was "going out" with her. She lives with her parents still, being 17 and all. And I found that she always seems to manage to get out of the house to go see her friends, but when I am in town, all of a sudden it is like her house has been issued into a state of Martial Law and she can never come out to see me. I saw her about 4 hours or so this time. In about 3 days.... Yeah, so that proved to me that nothing will ever happen between us so long as she is living under her parents thumb. That and I don't even know why I am thinking about this seeing as how I shouldn't be and should be staying as far away from her as possible.... Oh well, guess that is over pretty uch indefinitely now.
Like this girl at my work. Her name is Angelica. Pronounced with the G as an H since she is hispanic. She is fun to talk to. Always seems to make me smile when I see her, and I don't know if she likes me, but it doesn't matter anyways, cause she doesn't want a boyfriend right now. She is kinda paranoid about some stuff, and I respect that. Guess I get to be happy with just talking to her when I get the chance. I may ask her out and see what she says, but I think I will let things stay as they are, cause I don't want to put that akward tension between us if she knows I like her and get turned down. Don't want to loose the good moments I have. Few and far between those are and what not.
I have no clue why I am awake right now, seeing as how I get to go to work in a bout 8 hours, but oh well. One of my friends is going back to Cali. I will miss her. She always seems to have a smile, even though I can tell it is mask. Not like a fake smile, but more of the same kind of smile I have. You have those good times with friends when nothing seems to be better, and as soon as they are gone, you go back to thinking about things that you shouldn't be type deals. Or it might be the smile that you get when you aren't thinking bout those things and just are generally happy tyep smiles. Either way, I like her smile. Seeing her smile makes me smile. Kinda like one of those infectious laughs that when someone starts laughing you can't help but laugh too. I hope she does well in Cali, and has lots of fun, and is safe and etc.