Constant back and forth,
with certain decisions in my life. I can't complain, to be honest, everything is about as good as it can get. The weather is absolutely beautiful. As unnecessary and improper it is to share, the colder the weather is, the less worried I am about clothing myself, especially around the house. The new awake building is cute, small, in a way, but all the renovation that we're putting it through is creating a homey-feel. I'm excited to put the stencil work I have to start up in the display windows. The awake building is in OLD downtown Dacula, and the buildings are all old store fronts, but they're adorable and a bit crusty. I have tons of ideas for the interior and what not, and I'm glad I have/will have a leadership along with my friends who are also leaders in their own way. Oh, and if you're free, come out to the shows we're having at AWAKE in the future.
Sunday I have to attend the 18u softball tryouts I was invited to; I am not looking forward to it in the least. In fact I hope it rains, no, not rains, I hope it downpours and then flash freeze the roads so no one can escape from their houses. This is the constant vacillating between two choices. I love the form of exercise I do now, the gym for an hour and a half almost every day, neighborhood jogs, and soon pillates and yoga cool down up the road. However, I miss the relationship I had with the girls that play softball, my father who supported me in everything, and all this time I've "wasted" on softball in the past. But I don't want to waste more time if I can help it.. but if it's for fun I'm not wasting my time, right? What is right is that I don't have a clue in hell.
I find myself continuously getting easily irritated at school, which is strange because I also find that I'm becoming better friends with everyone in my classes. Compared to next year, my schedule is crap, complete shit. I can't wait to get out before twelve o'clock next year, being one of the only juniors to attend Grayson, and spend three hours studying photography, and STILL getting my distinction seal even if I'm having a class at the tech addition. I'll have all my credits by half of the school year in my senior year, I could only go to school for a period if it was allowed. I'll possibly be taking all AP classes so I can get some college credit... I'm rambling, I feel like I have to compensate for all the days that I've missed updating this with. Now I feel awkward writing out all of this.
I'm wearing Brian's school ring, I really like it, except for the fact that it has his name on it, and I really hate him... sort of.
At least Cali's cute. Can't say much for Brian.
Sunday I have to attend the 18u softball tryouts I was invited to; I am not looking forward to it in the least. In fact I hope it rains, no, not rains, I hope it downpours and then flash freeze the roads so no one can escape from their houses. This is the constant vacillating between two choices. I love the form of exercise I do now, the gym for an hour and a half almost every day, neighborhood jogs, and soon pillates and yoga cool down up the road. However, I miss the relationship I had with the girls that play softball, my father who supported me in everything, and all this time I've "wasted" on softball in the past. But I don't want to waste more time if I can help it.. but if it's for fun I'm not wasting my time, right? What is right is that I don't have a clue in hell.
I find myself continuously getting easily irritated at school, which is strange because I also find that I'm becoming better friends with everyone in my classes. Compared to next year, my schedule is crap, complete shit. I can't wait to get out before twelve o'clock next year, being one of the only juniors to attend Grayson, and spend three hours studying photography, and STILL getting my distinction seal even if I'm having a class at the tech addition. I'll have all my credits by half of the school year in my senior year, I could only go to school for a period if it was allowed. I'll possibly be taking all AP classes so I can get some college credit... I'm rambling, I feel like I have to compensate for all the days that I've missed updating this with. Now I feel awkward writing out all of this.
I'm wearing Brian's school ring, I really like it, except for the fact that it has his name on it, and I really hate him... sort of.
At least Cali's cute. Can't say much for Brian.