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well it seems that it has been forever since i have updated this silly little thing !!!!! mixed emotions are running threw my brain and so much has happend !!!!!
do you ever get the feeling that all good things are about to come to an end well i would elaberate on this but i have a bos u know kinda like a pos parentals over sholder but this time its a boyfriend over sholder heghehehehehehe i just invented my own internet abriviation !!!!!!!! anyways well i cant wait to update better and let the whole world just how i really feel
or mabey i can do it now due to the fact that everyone just went to go smoke and since i dnt do that i will be left all alone
finding out that ur bf has feeling for his ex still i would have to say is one of the most terrible feeling in the whole world
you think u are in love and then it seems as if it was all for nothing and you are investing ur whole life and heart into somthing that is just coming to an end !!!!
it feels terrible just for the record so i guess in the end anne wins
she still has his heart no matter how hard i try to be what he wants it is just never gonna be it he still is in love with her and i will never be able to be her or even come close to it so once again just as in drama and chior now in life i am just second best the the perfict girl named anne reding
wow reality check that just broke my heart to say all that
but i cant cry and let him know that im herting i must be strong and stand my ground
watching ur heart be broken right in front of u but not having the heart to stop it because u love him to damn much really sux u know !!!!
not to mention my home or if thats what i would call it has fallen aprt and i have shown myself that i have a true and genuine kind heart even after all that has happend in my home with my uncle when he needs me and his whole world has been torn apart i have come back and acted like nothing wrong has ever happend i think i just have matured befor my own eyes
wow the growing up that i have done in the past month is amaizing u all would not believe it !!!!!!
i will admit i have a long way to go befor i am a true adult just as i hope many of u have noticed about urselfs
its like after high school ur whole life just starts to begin and there is nothing that u can do to stop it u notice urself begining to grow up and change for the better
who could have know thta moving to cr fl was the exact thing that i needed to become an adult and get my life strait and on track
it seems as if even though i fell like things are falling apart i know that they are really just coming together
i am becoming a woman for real
im loving it !!!