Hoo boy
Well, crap. I've never really been in this situation before. Basically, of the five classes I am taking, I'm in danger of failing two of them, Ochem 2 and physics 2. It's not that I can't understand the material, it just that I have a hard time studying when other things are just....bleah. Living here is NOT at all what I though it was going to be. I mean, I didn't think it would be a grass hut on a deserted paradisical beach, and I knew living in a huge (relative to eugene) city would taking getting used to, but god. These last four months sure has taught me what my preferences are as far as living and school environments go. Cities have no smell, or if they do, it's of sewage or garbage. those of you who know me well understand this is a huge annoyance for me. Also, being hot and sticky for weeks at a time is NOT my cup of tea! you can put on a blankety if you're cold, but you can't take off anything beyond your skin if you are hot! My title was wrong, being cold does not suck, or at least not as much as being hot & sticky! The school is dirty and broken, the AC is way too cold in all the classrooms, THE LIBRARY IS A CONSTANT 58 DEGREES!!!! No one recycles here. you have no idea how irritating it is to see stuff dumped everywhere on these otherwise heavenly beaches! the stuff they recycle, they burn and sell the electricity. That IS NOT RECYCLING!!!! god. you really don't appreciate a place like Oregon until you move away for a long time. I guess this means I'm a hardcore oregonian. woo. I wish this had worked out, but I have never been so lost or depressed for so long. It's pretty bad when the thought of studying ochem or going out makes you almost physically sick. Our friend here help us cope so much, but those of them not from here want to go home as well. Both Jess and I are burning out schoolwise, and cannot stand three more years of undergrad. So, we are going to spend about a year and a half at OSU and get out undergrad degree, while at the same time making professional connections in the state we plan to settle down in. Our ambitions for Hawai'i were high, but we really had no idea how it was to actually live here until we moved here, and it did nto work out for us. so, cutting our losses, we will move back to Oregon with our two kitties and start anew. man i'm sick of moving. but at least having a furnished apartment means anyhting you cannot fit in a suitcase you can either leave for sell on craigslist. gee, i love craigslist. ANNNYWAY, sorry to rant, but it beats feeding the depression with an apple pie. This is a beautiful place to visit, but with all the problems of a big city, the shitty college, and the overt racism against us "damn fuckin' haoles" (as I was called a week ago by the driver of a car that cut ME off on my bike!!), it's not a place for the likes of me to live. grassy fields, fall leaves, snowboarding and oak trees slowly baking in the July sun are what I truly love. And it's taken me moveing away from all that to truely appreciate it. Iswear, if i hear another island music sample (they listen to it all over here!) I'm gonna break something. everyone should see Ice age 2. toodle oo.