Meh.
It's been a pretty screwy week... Trying to get my life on track, been looking for a job, applied to so many places I think I'm starting to forget all the places that I applied at. There is this really good job that I hope I'll get making 11 bucks an hour to sit at a dest doing secretarial work. The guy John said he would call me back regarding the position. The phone situation, I'm trying to work all the kinks out since my credit is kind of effed right now.. Cingular wanted a 300 dollar deposit, and until I get that money out of my cd, I have no way to afford it... Adam is gracious enough to let me stay under his plan until I figure shit out... I'm not on speaking terms with my mother right now. She's being a royal bitch, and I just decided to cut her off. I don't need to be putting up with this bullshit all of the time, I have enough on my plate and I don't need her trying to quote to me in how to live my life. Ugh. Growing up sucks!
Jamie has been mad at me for the last few days because her retarded ex-boyfriend wants to go out with me, and she thinks I want to date him! Which isn't even the case, I'm not looking for a relationship right now, nor will I be for a long time. I have a lot of things that I need to work on with myself before I bring another man in the picture. Because as much as I can play the victim, I know I possess a lot of faults. I don't want another bad relationship. It's been rocky with Adam thus far, and I'm getting sick and tired of all the bickering back and forth. I just want to move forward in my life, and do good things for myself... I know it will all come in time, but it's not happening quick enough for me right now.
I look like shit, I haven't been eating, and I haven't been getting much sleep. Insomnia is taking over my life again with all the stress that I put onto myself. I can literally lay down at 10 O'clock at night, and not be able to fall asleep until 3-4 in the morning, then get back up at 8-9 in the morning. I can't live like this, I need to fix my problems before I go clinically insane.
I called up Penn State Berks yesterday, they're filing my papers, and soon enough they can transfer everything down to the abington campus! Which means... I can be starting school as soon as January. :) Yay for me. =D
I dunno what else to say, I'm at the Library typing all of this up since Jamie's computer royally blows, and it takes 8 years to get onto the internet. (Can you say OLD SCHOOL?) lol... I'm thinking about withdrawling some books so I can read them on my down time. I've been on this really positive reading kick. I read a Psych book, and half of my business book already.
Take care everyone <333 I miss you all!
Jamie has been mad at me for the last few days because her retarded ex-boyfriend wants to go out with me, and she thinks I want to date him! Which isn't even the case, I'm not looking for a relationship right now, nor will I be for a long time. I have a lot of things that I need to work on with myself before I bring another man in the picture. Because as much as I can play the victim, I know I possess a lot of faults. I don't want another bad relationship. It's been rocky with Adam thus far, and I'm getting sick and tired of all the bickering back and forth. I just want to move forward in my life, and do good things for myself... I know it will all come in time, but it's not happening quick enough for me right now.
I look like shit, I haven't been eating, and I haven't been getting much sleep. Insomnia is taking over my life again with all the stress that I put onto myself. I can literally lay down at 10 O'clock at night, and not be able to fall asleep until 3-4 in the morning, then get back up at 8-9 in the morning. I can't live like this, I need to fix my problems before I go clinically insane.
I called up Penn State Berks yesterday, they're filing my papers, and soon enough they can transfer everything down to the abington campus! Which means... I can be starting school as soon as January. :) Yay for me. =D
I dunno what else to say, I'm at the Library typing all of this up since Jamie's computer royally blows, and it takes 8 years to get onto the internet. (Can you say OLD SCHOOL?) lol... I'm thinking about withdrawling some books so I can read them on my down time. I've been on this really positive reading kick. I read a Psych book, and half of my business book already.
Take care everyone <333 I miss you all!