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so with every new, wonderful road comes the dead end
and i got mine. this has been the worst month ever...every little thing that i say *well at least this hasnt gone wrong*, well it has. and the bitch who started the whole thing is on the same side as the asshole who is trying to get me fired, talk about feeling betrayed. theres supposed to be a sense of loyalty somewhere, but no his picture is on her myspace where she knows i'll see it. well i'm not fucking looking at it, fuck all of this. theres something wrong with a guy that age who has to go to someone way too naive to see through his shit cause everyone his age already has seen through all his shit, and she just doesn't know better. but she does know well enough to play power games with me and then act like im pitiful for still wanting her.
well im not pitiful anymore, congradulations, you make me sick.
i need new friends or something, i cant stand dead time, i have to be doing something and theres nothing to do. everytime the holidays come around something shitty happens and i never have someone to turn to that can make it all okay like everyone else seems to. and before you say *oh i know how you feel*, keep in mind you probably do have someone you could turn to but you push them away cause you know you can have them. QUIT. power games aren't what life is about.
im just so ready to quit everything just like everyone and everything i knew has quit me. im so tired and i wanna fight but i dont have anyone on my team, and i dont have anything left to fight with right now...i hope everyone who has helped put me here is really happy, cause im miserable right now. but it'll change, everything is a loop. i just feel like im on the slow part of the roller coaster where it takes forever to get to the top, then you're there for two seconds, then it's all downhill again.
and i got mine. this has been the worst month ever...every little thing that i say *well at least this hasnt gone wrong*, well it has. and the bitch who started the whole thing is on the same side as the asshole who is trying to get me fired, talk about feeling betrayed. theres supposed to be a sense of loyalty somewhere, but no his picture is on her myspace where she knows i'll see it. well i'm not fucking looking at it, fuck all of this. theres something wrong with a guy that age who has to go to someone way too naive to see through his shit cause everyone his age already has seen through all his shit, and she just doesn't know better. but she does know well enough to play power games with me and then act like im pitiful for still wanting her.
well im not pitiful anymore, congradulations, you make me sick.
i need new friends or something, i cant stand dead time, i have to be doing something and theres nothing to do. everytime the holidays come around something shitty happens and i never have someone to turn to that can make it all okay like everyone else seems to. and before you say *oh i know how you feel*, keep in mind you probably do have someone you could turn to but you push them away cause you know you can have them. QUIT. power games aren't what life is about.
im just so ready to quit everything just like everyone and everything i knew has quit me. im so tired and i wanna fight but i dont have anyone on my team, and i dont have anything left to fight with right now...i hope everyone who has helped put me here is really happy, cause im miserable right now. but it'll change, everything is a loop. i just feel like im on the slow part of the roller coaster where it takes forever to get to the top, then you're there for two seconds, then it's all downhill again.