i'm sad again

[havok_wolf]

i feel like shit, thats as fucking simple as i can put it. i'm so fucking depressed right now. its like i'm falling apart. i dont know. i cant explaine it. i just want to break down and cry for hours, but i cant, i mean i want to, but i actually cant, i dont know why. i want to cry, but i cant. i want to draw, but i cant. i want to write, but i cant. i want to paint, but i cant. i cant fucking do anything. i'm fucking worthless. everything i ever thought i was good at is a fucking lie. oh sure, i can draw. but not for myself, i havent drawn for pleasure in so long. everything has always been an assignment. i'm fucking worthless. i honostly hate myself right now. i wanted to draw earlier so i got out my sketch book, but nothing went on the paper, i just stared at it for a while, then i wanted to cry because i cant fucking do anything right. if i didnt have art, i'd have nothing. so i guess i have nothing. maybe its just one of those days. there is no one to hang out with. i've been inside all day, and i didnt have any weed today. haha. i think i'm weaker than i thought. oh well. i think i'll go now.
its funny, i wonder who actually reads this shit, besides you tig. i want my fucking AIM back. oh, well....
bye..............

~WOLF~