Recenties!
Yes things have been busy in recent times, lets start out with the fact I am engaged to Jared Ledger! (Scribblefox)
we are in a very happy and productive relationship constantly talking, growing and constructing things like art, fursuits, ideologies, sociology, psychology, our house and so on. Needless to say things have been very good for me :3
I had a few visitors from Victoria (where I used to live) they say I have lost my gaunt vacant expression and that I seem happy! This was surprising as I was not aware I had gaunt vacant features or inversely happy ones.
(these posts are for egomaniacal introverted ranting right?)
There has been some developing situations with my local furry group the VAF group specifically. I begun going to VAF parties over a year ago and realized that these people were getting together out of a very vague sense of relativity. Relativity is a very important word when it comes to things like "community" and "friendship" simply because if you stuff a house full of people who cannot relate to each other people get frightened and confused. Through the fog of this none relativity and lacksidasical attempts to honestly get to know one another LAZINESS sets it, it's a special kind of laziness one that compels people to talk about one another rather then have the awkward bold faced risk of actually talking to them. When I say "talking to them" I mean to their face, so In this formed a large bubble of drama and drama feeders (instigators and gossipers) so the problem simply grew.
I Know drama and gossip I used to be a team lead at a collection floor of 300 people, in this negative environment it's unavoidable that this kind of boredom/laziness fed drama will ensue. So I took a few weeks to analyze the group and then made the decision to osmos into their bubble again.
I now have individual interactions with good people from the furry circle and of course I have a slew of old and new Vancouverite friends who will always hang out. My point is that making the stand against the groups filthy bi-product has turned water into wine, I love it! Things are much better and much more peaceful except for one little shit. One person continues to try and harass me and Jared through a convoluted trail of gossip IT IS QUITE ANNOYING if your reading this!
Apparently My decision has also "shaken the cage" or "rocked the boat" I do not want to be in the same boat or cage forever!! Especially one that filthy and boring.
Now back to me! Artistically I am in a blissful position, besides the recent crap and working of fursuits with husband I have been focusing on my art forms and picking up new ones. I am now practicing graphite and pen illustrations which have always been my taste but recently I have been trying to get better. I also picked up painting with acrylics, much fun! and I have picked up sculpturing which is growing in fondness daily.
This makes me especially happy I have always loved art always idealized artwork always stood against meaningless art or art to serve a social purpose which gets into a deep long story about my philosophy and standpoint on "art" but none of that!!
The recent visitors have been both awesome and reawakening, these people from my past I have not seen in over a year are like quantum psychological mirrors telling me who I used to be. They always will be honest and fruitful with me and how they see the "change" in me.
I'm not the type of guy to rely on change when it's socially or ideologically convenient but I seem to be at a constant flow of change anyways.
But besides that they were awesome to! individually I had Allana stop by and her mom, both are now or going to be psychologists both are highly intellectual, idealized and happy.
It was very nice to sit down and talk with them in-depth about political issues and family issues and solutions.
Justin came by twice we went to the aquarium with him and had lunch, it was fantastic. Justin has always been a monolith of random happy energies a lot like a cat which he has 4 of from my count. He is also troubled with issues but nothing him and his GF can't overcome.
His only disappointment was that he could not find an octoplushie which says a lot.
I have been visiting and working with my dad on his house and ours. Jared and my dad get along fantastically: 3 and our home is a much more glowing and happy filled place. Still some minor corpulent degradation but nothing we can't fix.
Derek moved into Van 6 months back and we have been hanging out constantly talking about all subjects, playing games, smoking some weed and just generally hanging out. Lots of fun and a large sense of stability and logic comes from him which is seemingly hard to find these days.
I could keep ranting but my husband has awaken and is in need of caffeine stimulations!!