ups and downs
Ok right now i have my ups and downs. There are some time i miss rebecca so bad and then there are others,When i think im over her. Im trying all these new thing to keep me busy and my mind rebecca free. BUt it hard sometime at night when i miss her the most. And my mind is makeing up all this shit like i think she has found someone else. And im driving my self crazy. I have started going to the gun range, I bought a glock 9mm its fun. Im goin to try and get my sky diving license. And i have started stadying math with a friend. IM reading alot of books about horse so i can learn,Because i work around alot of horse people. Someone i work with is going to give me riding lessons, when i get back from my road trip. I just got 12 days off work i think im going to drive to vegas. I going on a road trip to make me relize again that i can do this im a strong person. I have lost almost 20 lbs in like 7 1/2 weeks. my friend tim just gave me a kiss on my forhead , and said thats what i think about that. while he plays my guitar which im finlly learning how to play,its about time.