suckerpunch
Sometimes I have no idea whats right for me. Lately I can't make a decision on anything. What do I want, what will they want me to what. What do I want to do, what do they want me to do. How do I want to act, how will they want me to act. I find myself getting more and more caught up in peoples lives and becoming more and more envious of things I don't have, things that come so easy to everybody but me.
I used to think I knew the definition of love. But I'm not sure I'm sure anymore. Maybe I do and I'm just distracted by them, or maybe they have the right idea. Married people deal with this, not 16 year olds. Highschools weird, it's a time when boys think its okay to start hooking up with everyone and girls are looking for their husbands. Do I want to marry who I'm dating right now? Honestly?
I freaking hate me. I feel so stupid. Not me in general, just my moods. None of this makes any sense, sorry.
I used to think I knew the definition of love. But I'm not sure I'm sure anymore. Maybe I do and I'm just distracted by them, or maybe they have the right idea. Married people deal with this, not 16 year olds. Highschools weird, it's a time when boys think its okay to start hooking up with everyone and girls are looking for their husbands. Do I want to marry who I'm dating right now? Honestly?
I freaking hate me. I feel so stupid. Not me in general, just my moods. None of this makes any sense, sorry.