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So I was thinking today about Andrew Bushy for some reason. And its like...people are either wicked mean to him or fake nice to him. Would i wabt friends or people who pretend to be my friends. I don't know, I really don't.
I got new clothes, I'm so excited.
We went to the pet store in the mal today and this dog had the saddest eyes, it was like a person and so I took it out to play with it becausee i figured...if i was a dog and nobody was going to buy me, the least i would want is for someone to come and play with me. So we took her out and she was kissing me and she was kinda a hot dog dog and adorable and i wanted her so bad and when we left i started crying because she had like people eyes and i felt like my best friend had just died or something. And then I felt like a baby because i was crying. Sometimes i get sad and I don't know what I need to make me happy. To be honest, I really don't know myself at all and I dont have it together. So sorry if I'm shattering someones thoughts of me or something.
I was thinking today. Love is so weird. Like, there are lots of forms. because if you would have asked me 3 monthes ago I would have said yes, 100% and I'm thinking about it now and me and the kid are friends, and we talk, but I dont love him like that. And it was all of a sudden that it happened. I loved him alot I really did and like...i don't know. It just hurt to know that I was holding onto this feeling that I had gotten that wouldnt ever be returned. Weird. And last year I would have sworn my life that I wasn't over my first love. And now...we still talk and everything, but feelings involving him are the farthest from love. Maybe we are too young for love. Or maybe I am, I don't know. For anyone who doesn't know, I don't like James anymmore. Go figure.Also: sometimes people piss me off so fucking much and i want to punch them in the face.
I have nothing better to do than to put some quotes.
So here ya go.
What do I wear in bed? Why, Chanel No.5, of course. --Marilyn Monroe
It was really pathetic how I was holding onto something that wasn't coming back
hi im your ex gf & i still think that you are amazing can i have you back now
&i don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me. & i thought maybe if i kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too.
"There's something liberating about not pretending. Dare to embarass yourself." -- Drew Barrymore
I took her heart, cause she let me<---I LOVE THAT the end.
That last quote got me thinking. Boys don't like you when you play hard to get, like they get mixed signals and stuff. So then you decide to be all free spirited and go with the flow and they still end of breaking ur heart. And you let them. But its not like your being fake either way, your just trying to make sense out of things. i know this doesnt make sense, but it does to me.
sometimes things get so crazy living
life gets hard to do but i would gladly
get up and go if i knew that someday
it would lead me back to you <3
She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable, She’s a myth
that I have to believe in …
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I don't know what to do// Slipknot
i really can't deny it. i am who i am. i'm pretty normal. i'm not that smooth type of girl. i run into things. i trip. i spill food. i say stupid things. i really don't have it all together -- KATIE H0LMES
Last time I saw you I tried to hide it wasting my time hoping you would walk by. I would have never guessed how deeply you have made me fall for you. I'm not sure how you still feel about us, I myself am a bit confused. I realize that you don't need me but right now I'm missing you. Please don't let it end this way.
and why put a new address on the same old lonliness?
this is you and me
And me and you
Until we've got nothing left
I MET SOMEONE, HE WAS NOTHING LIKE YOU. THEN I THOUGHT, MAYBE THAT'S WHAT I NEED.
Turn off the lights and turn off the shyness
look, i want to be with you, and if you don't want to be with me, i guess i understand, but this isn't going to change anything
i didnt tell you i wanted forever
but hey, why not work on it?
I've been waiting
Hesitating
Breaks my heart in two
Yours truely,
SALINA AGUILAR<3