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The last few days have been ok, went to maggies in london on wednesday and stayed over at shelleys(her daughter) which was cool cos she has a 2 yr old, payton who is sooo cute, so that was fun and yesterday i got back and basically was just putting stuff on ebay (all my buffy magazines and other stuff).Then today i went into town and took some cheques to the bank, bought my mum some pjs and thats about it.Oh, and i WAS trying not to think about stuart too much because i don't like liking him so much especially since i don't know him, then on my way back home i saw him walking down the road he lives (which is one up from mine) which doesn't help, because it makes me start thinking about him all over again, but i don't care now i can't control that fact the i like him so much so i'm not even gonna try because i'll see him tomorrow when i go to the shop and the other times i've tried not to like him it didnt work because i kept seeing him everywhere, i've just gotta start trying to get the guts to talk to him.
Tomorrow i'm just going over to my friends house and she got 'raise your voice' so we're gonna watch that, and then i've just gotta post a whole lot of magazines i've sold.I've been feeling really depressed lately not as bad as i did last year but i feel like it's those feelings are coming back because i hate everything about my life right now with the exception of a couple of things.But, yea i'm not gonna bother writing anymore, i've made myself sad just thinking about.Ok , well i might update later of probably tomorrow because i'm sure there'll be something to say about stuart, lol.
***Jess***
Some quotes...
For once, instead of telling me the reasons why I
shouldn’t cry, actually pay attention to the reasons
why I am...
The hardest kinda guy to get over, is the kind you never had.
When you look at me, it's like you're secretly trying to tell me not to give up hope. But I want you to know something...I almost have...
There comes a time when someone walks into your life, and you finally know why it never worked out with any one else...
Sometimes, you think you've gotten over a person, but when you see him smile and suddenly realize, you're just pretending you're over him to ease the pain of knowing he will never be yours.
If you want me in your life, you'll find a way to put me there.
When one door closes another one opens. Sometimes we look so long at the closed door, we don’t see the one that opened.
& that’s what you get for falling again, you can never get him out of your head.
Sometimes what you want isn't always what you get, but in the end what you get is so much better than what you had wanted.
Sometimes....
no matter how long, or how hard you've loved someone,
they'll never love you back and no matter how much it hurts,
you'll have to be okay with that.
The way I look at it you should live everyday like it's your birthday.
-- Paris Hilton
Trying to be someone that you know your not
It gets harder everyday
All the lonely days
There's no one left to love
You wish life would go away
-- Harder Everyday (Ashlee Simpson)
Saw you today and you seemed so surprised...
that I could walk by and not blink an eye..
look at me, probably thinking I’m doing fine...
Good thing you can’t read my mind.
I always wonder what goes through his mind when our eyes meet and he smiles.
I’ve learned life is like an hour glass.. sooner or later everything hits rock bottom
but all you have to do is wait and be patient for something to turn everything around.
One day I feel so happy, the next I feel so sad.
I guess I’ll have to take the good with the bad.
.. each night I ask the stars up above,
why must I be a teenager in love?
ok its like this: I think about you constantly. all the little things, they somehow remind me of you. whenever I hear someone mention your name their own conversation captures my complete and undivided attention. when I see you my tummy turns and I get butterflies, and you don’t know it, but its because of you. I wish you weren’t so blind and you could see me looking at you the way that I do. I wish that you could look into my eyes a realize that I need you. and all those little conversations we have...the ones that you probably think of as just a normal person saying normal things to you. Well those get me through my hard days and tough times.
Tomorrow i'm just going over to my friends house and she got 'raise your voice' so we're gonna watch that, and then i've just gotta post a whole lot of magazines i've sold.I've been feeling really depressed lately not as bad as i did last year but i feel like it's those feelings are coming back because i hate everything about my life right now with the exception of a couple of things.But, yea i'm not gonna bother writing anymore, i've made myself sad just thinking about.Ok , well i might update later of probably tomorrow because i'm sure there'll be something to say about stuart, lol.
***Jess***
Some quotes...
For once, instead of telling me the reasons why I
shouldn’t cry, actually pay attention to the reasons
why I am...
The hardest kinda guy to get over, is the kind you never had.
When you look at me, it's like you're secretly trying to tell me not to give up hope. But I want you to know something...I almost have...
There comes a time when someone walks into your life, and you finally know why it never worked out with any one else...
Sometimes, you think you've gotten over a person, but when you see him smile and suddenly realize, you're just pretending you're over him to ease the pain of knowing he will never be yours.
If you want me in your life, you'll find a way to put me there.
When one door closes another one opens. Sometimes we look so long at the closed door, we don’t see the one that opened.
& that’s what you get for falling again, you can never get him out of your head.
Sometimes what you want isn't always what you get, but in the end what you get is so much better than what you had wanted.
Sometimes....
no matter how long, or how hard you've loved someone,
they'll never love you back and no matter how much it hurts,
you'll have to be okay with that.
The way I look at it you should live everyday like it's your birthday.
-- Paris Hilton
Trying to be someone that you know your not
It gets harder everyday
All the lonely days
There's no one left to love
You wish life would go away
-- Harder Everyday (Ashlee Simpson)
Saw you today and you seemed so surprised...
that I could walk by and not blink an eye..
look at me, probably thinking I’m doing fine...
Good thing you can’t read my mind.
I always wonder what goes through his mind when our eyes meet and he smiles.
I’ve learned life is like an hour glass.. sooner or later everything hits rock bottom
but all you have to do is wait and be patient for something to turn everything around.
One day I feel so happy, the next I feel so sad.
I guess I’ll have to take the good with the bad.
.. each night I ask the stars up above,
why must I be a teenager in love?
ok its like this: I think about you constantly. all the little things, they somehow remind me of you. whenever I hear someone mention your name their own conversation captures my complete and undivided attention. when I see you my tummy turns and I get butterflies, and you don’t know it, but its because of you. I wish you weren’t so blind and you could see me looking at you the way that I do. I wish that you could look into my eyes a realize that I need you. and all those little conversations we have...the ones that you probably think of as just a normal person saying normal things to you. Well those get me through my hard days and tough times.