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Sooo, not much really been happening. I went up to some relatives with my mum and uncle for the day yesterday, but it was pretty boring.
But it's my birthday in 16days!!!I'm kind of excited because it's my 16th aswell, but i wanted to do something really exciting for it but i couldn't really come up with anything , since there's NOTHING to do around here, so i think i'll just do what i usually do, whic is usually have a friend stay over, or maybe go shopping in brighton or something, and then i'll probably be going up to see my family up near london, and my uncles gonna take us to a restaurant he says so it shouldn't be TOO bad. Oh and hopefully around November i'll be going back to Belgium with my nan, which will be cool cos they have lots of things going on there this time of year.
I don't know if i'll be having any friends around on my birthday, i mean i'll see my other friends, but i usually have my best friend round, to sleepover and we watch movies and eat crap all night lol.
But we had a pretty big argument, becuase she was really pissing me off and being really bitchy.She asked me for a favour, and the thing is , is that i used get pushed around by her quite a bit, and i can't take it and i haven't for a while, so when i didn't do what she wanted me to do (which was basically call someone and tell them something, and i didn't do it because she always wants me to do the things she doesn't want to do & i didn't see why i should have to) she got annoyed with me and was saying things like, " if you were a good friend you would" & "you know i'd do it for you" which is bullshit.And then she started asking me why i wasn't confident to do it, and that she always looked up to me cos i was confident but now she didn't and i'm not the same person she thought i was & i haven't ever really been very confident and it's something i worry about because that's why i find it hard to talk to guys and stuff, so i didnt need her to put me down because of it.And it all started because i wouldn't do what she wanted, and then she says i'm a bad friend for not doing it, and she wasn't even abit sorry for anything she'd said.And this was the 1st time i have EVER cried after and argument, and not because we argued but because of what she said, and now i feel weak for letting it get to me.
So i don't really know what to do, because i'll see her on saturday and since we pick her up to go to dance saturday morning, i don't know whether to act like i'm fine, or show her that i'm pissed off with her or what.Because to me, everything she said was completely wrong to say, but if anyone wants to give their opinions on it , i wouldn't mind, even if you don't agree with me it's fine :)
Well i'm gonna go. Even talking about it's making me annoyed lol.
But it's my birthday in 16days!!!I'm kind of excited because it's my 16th aswell, but i wanted to do something really exciting for it but i couldn't really come up with anything , since there's NOTHING to do around here, so i think i'll just do what i usually do, whic is usually have a friend stay over, or maybe go shopping in brighton or something, and then i'll probably be going up to see my family up near london, and my uncles gonna take us to a restaurant he says so it shouldn't be TOO bad. Oh and hopefully around November i'll be going back to Belgium with my nan, which will be cool cos they have lots of things going on there this time of year.
I don't know if i'll be having any friends around on my birthday, i mean i'll see my other friends, but i usually have my best friend round, to sleepover and we watch movies and eat crap all night lol.
But we had a pretty big argument, becuase she was really pissing me off and being really bitchy.She asked me for a favour, and the thing is , is that i used get pushed around by her quite a bit, and i can't take it and i haven't for a while, so when i didn't do what she wanted me to do (which was basically call someone and tell them something, and i didn't do it because she always wants me to do the things she doesn't want to do & i didn't see why i should have to) she got annoyed with me and was saying things like, " if you were a good friend you would" & "you know i'd do it for you" which is bullshit.And then she started asking me why i wasn't confident to do it, and that she always looked up to me cos i was confident but now she didn't and i'm not the same person she thought i was & i haven't ever really been very confident and it's something i worry about because that's why i find it hard to talk to guys and stuff, so i didnt need her to put me down because of it.And it all started because i wouldn't do what she wanted, and then she says i'm a bad friend for not doing it, and she wasn't even abit sorry for anything she'd said.And this was the 1st time i have EVER cried after and argument, and not because we argued but because of what she said, and now i feel weak for letting it get to me.
So i don't really know what to do, because i'll see her on saturday and since we pick her up to go to dance saturday morning, i don't know whether to act like i'm fine, or show her that i'm pissed off with her or what.Because to me, everything she said was completely wrong to say, but if anyone wants to give their opinions on it , i wouldn't mind, even if you don't agree with me it's fine :)
Well i'm gonna go. Even talking about it's making me annoyed lol.