i just feel

[haute___colours]

kind of sad.
feels like im going to be alone for awhile.
i miss the honey moon
and the kisses for no reason.
i miss the touching of stretching bodies on soft sheets
and the long nights we had.
i miss hearing about how proud you are.
i miss our child like relationship.
so brand new
so undiscovered.
i miss it so much.
i miss that time with you
you know the time when you
declared your love
i miss me laughing and you playing
i miss us.
ive understood now
the severe consequences i must face
time alone
time undone

a burning in my throat...
arises with these questions
when will i see you again?
when will it feel like it did?
when will we know that this is for real?

yeah, just as i thought.

im not scared of things anymore. i cant live my life in fear. theres got to be a way i can make "we" work, i dont want to be someone elses girlfriend and spend friday nights in someone elses bed. i dont want you to be with her... who ever "her" will be...... eventually.

i never want to be "that girl" you know... the girl from your past... that you tell new comers about. about how i screwed up and you didnt give in fully to a new chance...