forgive never.. regret always..
with my fingers i comb my dead hair over to left across my face... glaring at this flourescent screen... i wonder if i should really be typing this late.. a journey back home tomorrow to see my past.
this weekend, probably one of the longest ive been through in a long time.
i needed it though..
i needed my eyes to be opened.
all of my life i have been sheltered from reality.. weather ive done it to myself with a little help from my parents or if theyve soley given me the beer goggles to life.
have i missed some chapter from a book on how to live or did i skip that class in school? honestly...
i have just moved from my comfort zone into a new world. on my way here i fucked up some things..
a chance to finalize my thoughts about who i am and a chance to help someone grow from my love.
what love? the love i have sucked straight through a straw...
from you, i drank the blood of our relationship.. i drank it dry...
dont worry though because the tears from my eyes filled the emptiness..
the emptiness of the hole between us...
where does one go from here. from thinking theyve got everything at the tips of their fingers.. to nothing... then to a new begining.
obviously love will make it work.. not alone but if i claim to have so much love then ill be able to make it all possible.
ill make you happy through my own happiness...
i sit here and comb my hair across my face over to the left.. my fingers shake a bit.. and my eyes are swelling up again. the fear i once had of being without you is gone. slowly... my eyelids move back and forth.
i need to go be alone for a couple hours before i have to work..
i might be able to eat again.. who knows...
alone i am...
content ill be once im done writing this song.
just wait... ill be able to sing it one day...
this weekend, probably one of the longest ive been through in a long time.
i needed it though..
i needed my eyes to be opened.
all of my life i have been sheltered from reality.. weather ive done it to myself with a little help from my parents or if theyve soley given me the beer goggles to life.
have i missed some chapter from a book on how to live or did i skip that class in school? honestly...
i have just moved from my comfort zone into a new world. on my way here i fucked up some things..
a chance to finalize my thoughts about who i am and a chance to help someone grow from my love.
what love? the love i have sucked straight through a straw...
from you, i drank the blood of our relationship.. i drank it dry...
dont worry though because the tears from my eyes filled the emptiness..
the emptiness of the hole between us...
where does one go from here. from thinking theyve got everything at the tips of their fingers.. to nothing... then to a new begining.
obviously love will make it work.. not alone but if i claim to have so much love then ill be able to make it all possible.
ill make you happy through my own happiness...
i sit here and comb my hair across my face over to the left.. my fingers shake a bit.. and my eyes are swelling up again. the fear i once had of being without you is gone. slowly... my eyelids move back and forth.
i need to go be alone for a couple hours before i have to work..
i might be able to eat again.. who knows...
alone i am...
content ill be once im done writing this song.
just wait... ill be able to sing it one day...